Champion?

It's more than a month since I won the title for MC champion in TalentTime Night. The truth is, I never really thought I deserved it, that's why like everytime I face something I don't wanna face, I try avoiding reality - not blogging about it. What is there to reflect upon if all I feel is guilt and remorse on taking an undeserving title. But then again, who am I to say that I don't deserve it when the judge's decision is final?

"MC champion"

That's what people have been calling me for the past month

I hope it wears out fast

Hoping it may not last

Or to go in hiding I must

haha!

Ok, so its not that bad

But initially it was

Never knew I could do it

But my name was called

Couldnt believe it

Did I deserve it

Or was I just dreamin

While there were all hugs and tears

I was just plain blur

People congratulating
Me inside contemplating

"Did I deserve it?!"

I may have come across as proud

Cos from my eyes there were just no tears!!

The other winners were crying

But I was just there numbing

I felt like my friends deserved it better

Seriously didnt think I deserve it

I guess I just look upon myself too low

Gripped by regret like my mind tells me so

But why did I feel the way that I felt

When I should be proud cos He helped me through it

A child of God, what are the odds?

I should be giving Him all of the glory

Bringing this into another perspective

I am a "Champion" in the eyes of God

Not based on wordly standards

But on His word

If I don't look at myself the way He sees me

I'm just cheapening His blood

That was once shed for me

He championed my cause

And I'm sure not a lost cause

I have to keep reminding myself

That I'm a child of God

Deserving of His love and anything that comes my way

So now I do see myself as a champion...

Not solely for TT night but also for God

Hope to champion others for Him

For He is the Champion of all champions

Not as one who won medals

Which moth and rust can destroy

But the One who has won my heart.