1 hour 44 seconds...and counting on...

Its the first 1 hour & 44 minutes of 2010
And I don't even feel like going to bed

Today started wacky
Then it turned crazy
Cos things were kinda messy

Then my feelings kinda went down
But during the countdown
It went high up
Felt like soaring sky high

I questioned God
Asking Him why don't people show
At least a bit of gratitude known

When others (as in Pastors) go out of their way
To offer you condolence they may
And when its time to show up
Its all a no-show

They have other plans
Better than what is planned
But who am I to judge?
When God is the One in charge!

I believe everything today was Divine
Well at least the second part of it
For God works in ways
We never understand

This year was fantastic!
Learned more mechanics
but also got into the Dynamics!
A bigger mixture of what salt & sugar can mix!

I had my seriously low points
Talk about loosing money in the 4 digits
To an almost best friend to begin with
Making me feel down right stupid & silly

But I also had really high points
The children I work with oh such a blessing
The friends I have to share my Faith in church
The adults who've helped me along the way

I colored my hair for the first time this year
Got a distinction in my grade 8 ballet examination
Joined a dance troupe from KL
And found my love of writing

Went paintball shooting and got hit by friendly fire
(It still hurts cos I got shot by my OWN teammate
70 meters per sec, you do the math)
Joined Floorball camp & got hit in the eye
(not by the ball, but by the stick!)
Lost my contact lense
(and still am not sure whether its in my eye or seriously dropped out)

Met wonderful people
And made better friendships
Got my feelings hurt
But never last long cos I know God has heard

And it all rounds up to today
Ok, not exactly today but a few hours ago
When I won a Navinci sofa chair!!!
From a blessing draw never knew it may!

Gave it to someone who needed it more
Tripped and fall on my way up with the chair
4 inch platforms heels doesn't really help
but slowly and heavily it reached where it belonged

Didn't get a thank you
But did saw the gratitude
For the previous chair is broken so bad
The 2 arms are separate and the bottom cushion flat

When I first saw it
I prayed in my heart
That I needed to get him a chair that's all intact

But how? I lost so much money
How will I get a chair?
GAP- God Answers Prayers
And my prayer was answered

Its the first 2 hours and 12 minutes into 2010
And still counting....
I'm sure this year will be ten times better
Cos of the name in itself
And of course God in Himself

He'll never leave me
Sticking by me in the 365 days to come
I love you Lord!!!

It's 2 hours 14 minutes
and still counting
The clock is ticking
Let's better start believing
In Him we live in

2.15 and still counting.........
(But my Daddy up there is what I'm counting on)
Happy 2010 Everyone! Hope you have a great one this year!

Christmas

Christmas is here and it's almost gone
So let's wish our loved ones
Before time is lost

Christmas
A time of giving and sharing
A time of Love and Hope
But most importantly
A time to remember our Lord Jesus

Well not exactly
I think we should think of Him all year round
But maybe make it more visual
This time round

Christmas is about His story
But making it more sorry
People have covered it
With Santa Claus, reindeer's and elves
Emphasizing on oneself

Counting the presents we'll have
Or whether we'll get the right one this year
Focusing on things everywhere
Sometimes neglecting the One up there

People celebrate it for the wrong reasons
Maybe a chance to get tipsy
Or to act all too wild
Reducing and affecting the meaning of Christmas

But the bright side of it?
Every other religion or culture
May not be celebrated the whole world round
But that's not what Christmas is all about

Americans, Asians and even Indians
Celebrate Christmas everywhere
The whole earth is reliving the birth of Christ
Whether they're conscious about it or not

So let's take this time
And thank God
Of all the wondrous
Things He has brought

Let's think about the poor
And keep them in our prayers
The widows
That God will give them strength

God is coming oh so soon
Let's take the chance
To give Him more room

Pray for the unsaved
The lost
Our loved ones
Who don't know God yet

That we may spend
All of eternity together
In God's hands

Christmas comes only once a year
So let's not neglect
To wish our loved ones
A "Merry Christmas"

For we don't have many chances
To say this in our lifetime

so for now
for the last time this year
I wanna wish you all a

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!
(& Stay close to Jesus)

A great discovery

We've been friends for not very long

Just sang some songs

And got along

Too bad a week later it's goodbye, so-long

But I do hope this friendships will last long
For it's not often when a great bunch comes along
Get to know them for a week
And it's laughter and God, together we seek

Took time for us to bond
But after the warming up
It's a whole different kinda story
For it's something like a mark in history

If it wouldnt be for their missions & our camps
We would have never been friends
But now we are and its oh so fun
Just like the pink rays of a bright shining sun

They thought us the words
"BoOmZ" & "SHinGz"
And it's not just the words that ring
But craziness we share in our clique

We danced in the airport
And made a video of some sort
Having fun together
Sharing the same faith making it even better

Even the older ones are as cool
Never seen such sporty adults
Dancing with us
Not caring bout witnesses
(witness as in strangers/passerbys witnessing our funny scene)

I'll miss them a lot
I miss them already
But I'm sure I'll get to meet them
Oh I cant wait for that moment

For the past week was great
Being wacky and all
We still spent quality time with the One above
Making us feel from the inside out- LOVED

I met wonderful people
Heard wonderful experiences
Laughed a whole lot
And cried pretty much too
(But its the good kinda crying)
Made friendships
And cultivated them
Shared our same faith
And played fun games
I'm thankful to God
For giving me all these
Making me remember
His wonderful blessings

And I cant sum all this up
The friendships
The laughter
The jokes
The conversations
The claps
The smiles
The faith
The memory captured
The joy
The food
The photos taken
And also the
"As long as it's for God,
I don't really care what people think" attitude
(refering to the scene in the airport=D)
I cant help but say
It has been

A GREAT DISCOVERY!!!

When my faith is questioned

When my faith is questioned
It's not just a suggestion
More like a statement
Thinking it's amendment

Faith versus scientific facts
I rather not choose the latter
For what is there to compare
When stats aren't everything out there

There's no way to box God up
And try to sum it all up
Thinking and rationalizing
In never-ending debating

For God is God
And we're only mortal
So just let God be God
And submit to Him total

Some people don't get that
Cos they stick to the facts
Making stats more important
Than the One who truly made them

How can I defend my faith?
When you keep screaming?
Not giving me a second
To proclaim what I believe in

I know you've read books
And know about scientists
Whom discover things contradicting the Word
But they're starting to align the way it should work

Scientists are discovering wonders beyond all means
Things stated from the Bible where it all begins
Like the day He moved the sun backwards?
Scientists confirmed it after calculation

Ok, so we do have facts which coincide
Making it even more of an insight
But even if they don't coincide
This is the part where faith comes in

Faith
"The substance of things hoped for"
"the evidence of things not seen"
Only people with brave hearts will truly be keen

For they're willing to be ridiculed
Questioned and challenged
May not always get the right answers
But with God on our side, victory is ours!

Why do you even bother using your finite mind
To comprehend & understand an infinite God?
He won't be God in the first place
If we'll always have the final say

It's hard when the ones close to you
Don't share the same beliefs
Even harder when 'Heaven' and 'Hell'
Comes in and determine

Paradigm powers perception
And perception powers belief
Its all in the mind
But I'll leave it to the Divine

I pray that one day
You'll see what I see
That God is everything
Way more than we think

Next time when this happens
When my faith is questioned
I'll submit the conversation to You
Knowing You're in the center

Never letting my faith waver...

Home is Heaven

Its been 6 days since grandpa left,

4 days since his funeral,

Yet I don't feel the impact

As hard as I tought I would feel.

The moment I got the call,

saying that he has gone to be with the Lord,

I didn't know what or how to feel,

The feeling was just stagnant.

Wanted to blog about it there and then,

But couldn't even face my blogpage,

Maybe I couldn't allow reality to hit,

Didn't want my thoughts to be confronted.

Maybe I wanted to believe he was still here,

Sitting at the end of the table,

Waiting on for his favourite food,

Ice-cream something he truly liked.

But through the process,

Of his wake services and funeral,

My family learnt a lot,

More about the celebration of life

rather than the mourning of a lost one.

He is in a better place now,

although I miss him a lot,

I wont be missing him forever,

For I'll see him again 1 day.

Home is Heaven, and 1 day we'll all be reunited.