Happy Mother's Day

Going to church and seeing the children sing for their moms

How the youth appreciated their mothers effort

How the husbands prayed for their wives

And how each mom teared up as their children gave them hugs

Really made me miss my mom all the more

My mom is really super woman

Juggling work, home and ministry

Training my maid to be a good cook

And always keeping the best interest of me and my sis

As the pastor today shared about the great things and attributes about his mom

I can't stop but think of how my mom have helped me through my darkest moments

She never gave up on me when even I gave up on myself

And always hold me closed letting me know that God is still in control

My thoughts brought me down memory lane and I started to remember of

The time she celebrated with me 

When I finished my Grade 8 ballet with an unexpected distinction

The shuffling to ballet classes for about 10 years paid off

Taking time off work just to make sure I attend my lessons

So many times I cried and wanted to give up

She never allowed it

And now I am grateful

The time when she would lie with me on my bed

When I was going through depression

The feeling of not being able to sleep

And the frustration of seeing a glimpse of that 5 am sunlight

Warning me that I wasted a whole night and the new day would feel hazy

Yet she still laid there beside me

Loosing her sleep ever so willingly

The time when she cried with me

When I lost half my life's savings to a friend I thought was "dear"

We aren't very rich and I needed that money for college

She was more heartbroken than I for she said it was my carefully saved "ang pau's"

Yet she asked me to forgive

And told me with God money should not be an issue

Or zooming way back into time when I wasn't even born yet

When she prayed and prayed for a dear little baby

Someone she can call her own little child

Her prayers paid off and after 9 years

I was born

Or how she could build up the courage to walk away from "bondage"

During the phase my sister was born

To leave a life of security and companionship

With a newborn in hand and our futures at stake

It wasn't easy and 'till now 

I don't know how she did it

Or how she was bold enough to bring my sis and I all the way to Alor Star

A mother with 2 young daughters

A new home, a new job and new schools

It wasn't easy and there was a lot of quarreling

As I was entering my teens

But then is when we really bloom

Where my sister learnt the bass

And I learnt to worship lead

A whole book can be written on that 5 special years

And my mom plays the part as 2nd lead

Allowing God to take the main role

I can go on and on and on

But blogpost are not pages so we have to stop somewhere

My mom is very special

Hard to describe because she doesn't like attention

Even going back during the sem break

One of her close friends told me and deb that we should help her out

Cos all she does is work and work ever so selflessly

And she just seem to be living for the sake of me, deb and God

She's weird in a way 

Because when other mom's ask their children to do well in studies

She always asks us to do better in ministries

(that's why though the limited finance, 

she never stingy on paying for lessons because she believes its a tool for serving God)

And every time I call home telling that I may not be able to maintain my CGPA

As long as I don't cut out my time with God everything would be ok

She's more excited than me for our prayer group

And I tell her every single detail that happens there

Because I do need the covering

And the many prayers she gives me

She tells me to never give up

And make sure I'm always in the centre of God's will

And told me that prayer group is there not because of me but because of God

And to know that God wants it there even more than any of us

I truly thank God for her

For no other mom could fit me better than her

She's the greatest mom in the world

Because she's my mom and God gave her to me

God gave me a gift

Which gave me the gift of life

For without her I wouldn't be drafting this post

And being in awe of how God crafts things out

Mom,

If you're reading this I hope you will be blessed

To know how much you've blessed me

And to know how much you mean to me

Besides God you are my world

And as I breathe from day to day

I'll never forget this gift of life you gave me

Never giving up on me and deb

And always holding onto the promises of God

You've been through storms and crashing seas

Yet you rise above them with what seems like ease

Never letting words or actions hurled at you

Hinder your faith and relationship with God

Because of you

I am who I am today

And my faith is where it is today

Because I model after the greatest role model ever

On behalf on deb and myself

I would like to thank you

For putting up with our tempers and tantrums

And for making sure we're deeply rooted in God's word

What did we do to deserve a mom like you

Only God knows and I'm truly grateful

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MOM

And I love you!