My Freshmen Year

Seeing so many freshmen come into hostel and college

Brings back memories of how I was just like anyone of them

Clueless, excited, curious and expectant for a new life

To start afresh and anew where (maybe) no one have known you before

And things of the past whether dark or light can be hidden by a personal chance

I came not knowing what to expect

Just knew that there would be no more uniforms!

(dreaded that in the beginning, but enjoying the advantage now)

And that classes wouldn't be as hectic as high school or even primary

However

There were doubts and fears

Would I make any friends?

Would I be accepted?

Would I do well in my studies?

Would I be able to hand wash my own clothes?

Keep my room tidy?

Be punctual for classes?

Get lost in this huge campus?

Manage my finance?

Fall into peer pressure ?

Like how my friend clubbed the first few months of her college year

(some of which I couldn't keep, besides the clubbing)

There were so many mix emotions

But I think the greatest one was wondering whether my roommate was a Christian

And if not, would she allow me to tear off that 3 charms by the door

Cos I know I'm fully protected nothing else needed

I couldn't eat or think straight the day I was gonna enter hostel

How am I gonna play my guitar and sing to the Lord?

Or even have my quiet time without being watched?

She came in a week later.

My worries were in vain.

She wasn't a Christian but still allowed me to tear them off

Thank God!

Met a bunch of Indians

Fell in love with who they were

And their different backgrounds

Spent almost every night in the canteen hanging out with them

I guess if I stayed in my room the whole time

The fear of loneliness will creep in beside me

But I'm one year wiser now

And I don't do that anymore

Auditioned for TalentTime Night

Just for the stamp to get my free ticket

Ended up in the finals

And unexpectedly received the title

(that in itself is a story to tell, click here)

Went for classes and got a bit of a culture shock

Not only of its different system but of the environment

 Some people in my class I thought weird

But now I truly cherish and admire

In the beginning we were't bonding

Got some of us worried

But now we're slowly connecting

Went to Melaka for a photo shoot

Ipoh for a Hillsong conference!

Both with amazing people

And filled with unforgettable moments

Would never know how I ended up in these places

Crazy how life can get as easy as it shows

Got lost in college quite a few times

Still got lost this year

Confirms the absence of my sense of direction

My Freshmen year 

Not that easy to sum it all here

But it was seriously a roller coaster ride

With God controlling the operating computers

He knew when to hyped things up when I was feeling homesick

Or slowed things down when I couldn't hold a grip

To get me prepared on the verge of a hill

Or hold me intact on a vertical loop

To be by my side when I though I could die

And to give me the feeling of exhilaration and excitement

Besides this crazy ride with overwhelming moments

By God's grace

I managed to finish a full circuit

Fulfilled. Proud. Grateful.

I came with the intention of keeping things simple
Didn't plan to serve in CF or any societies whatsoever
Thought that life before was way too hectic 
  Wanted to "rest"and stay undercover
Things went exactly the opposite
Way more than whatever I expected
Shows how God has better plans and a higher purpose
I don't wanna be a Jonah.

I'm a senior now

And a year wiser

I wanna lookout for the freshmen

Just like how my Father in Heaven looked over me

That way they can see His love

And one day accept him

For whether its my freshmen or senior year

The end time is near

And I have to do something

Live everyday to its fullest and never regret a moment

Accept the praises by giving God the glory

Thanking Him for this pleasant life I live

And keeping Him in mind all of the time

For everything happens for a reason

A lesson I truly learnt

In my freshmen year

(The best year of my life so far)