He is SO close

Been waking up earlier and earlier each day

Don't know why, don't know how

Is it the stress of exams?

God wanting me to pray?

It's just weird. 

Cos I'm a sleeper.

Never had the discipline of waking up by myself

Throughout the whole of my high school

From waking up at 8 to 6

And now 4.30 in the morning

What's going on with me?

Anyways, whether its a wake-up call from God or not

I can't go back to sleep

So the past few days have been filled with

Early morning walks with the Lord <3

Today was a but different

Since its a weekend and most hostelians were back home

I could pray in tounges

Strong tounges out loud

The feeling was awesome

Prayed for a few people

Situations and circumstances

When there were no more words

Tongues =)

Saw my favorite guard and went over to chat with him

It was 6 in the morning

What was I thinking?

Just felt that he was so close to the Kingdom of God

He told me about his life, his worries

His wife, his family

And that he's coming to the end of his life

And would be going home soon

IF ONLY HE KNEW MY GOD

Lesson unexpected-

He told me to treasure my mom

She's the only one on earth

Not someone I can buy from the grocery store

That when I get married one day

To give my husband another 100% of my love

And not divide it among both

That way my mom still receives the same 100% she always had

Unlike him who kinda forgot about his mom

Because he shared his love between his mom and wife

So his mom only received 50% of his love in that time

And now he regrets it

What a cute doctrine,ay?

He also said that after meeting me

I've put some ideas in his head

And got him thinking

"What is life?"

He's decided to resign end of this year

Because he'd rather have a 9 to 5 job

To be able to sleep with his wife and kids at night

And not torture himself with a job which needs him awake

When everyone's dreaming

Not sure whether that's a good idea

Cos it means lesser time for me to share God with Him

And to let him know life isn't about worries and doubts

But about Jesus and the peace and happiness He can give

Something wonderful which he said too

That even the birds don't have to worry bout what they'll eat

Yet we humans strive for provision and food

Rings a bell?

"Look at the birds of the air; 

they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, 

and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. 

Are you not much more valuable than they?"

-Matt 6:26-

Not sure whether he read that in the Koran or something

But I believe its not by coincidence

I wanted to say how valuable he is

But my reasoning came in the way and I just didn't know what to say

Hopefully I can meet him later as I go to church

And give him the answer straight out of the bible

Which he quoted from without finishing the sentence 

That yes, birds have nothing to worry about

Because our Heavenly Father cares for them

But He cares for us more!!!

I pray for him everyday I pass the guard house

That God may open his heart and enlighten him

That he may realize that God does not give suffering

But peace, joy and love

All that this guard needs right now

I'm glad that I've put ideas and thoughts into his mind

Without really realizing

Should be the power of God moving

Don't underestimate any single conversation

It just might be an open door we can't see

He also asked a very good question

Since he's so intrigued by the freedom and care-free life birds have

He wondered where do they die

Good question

Where do birds die?

We see them flying everywhere
But  unlike dead dogs, cats and mice lying on the grounds

We don't see birds falling to their deaths....

Anyways

I pray before he leaves this place

I'll have the guts to not just stop at sharing Jesus with him

But to ask whether he wants Jesus in

Because through the many dialogues over the weeks

I find that

He is just so close.....