Staying Faithful

Thank God for friends

Who reminds us of faithfulness

Making us flip the bible (many times =P)

To really get down to the meaning of it

But although we prayed what we prayed

And heard and shared

I still felt lost and insecure

For the moment after that

Read a magazine

But felt dirty inside

Tried to talk to God

But an answer there was not

Took a walk alone

But felt the wind so cold

Gazed up at the sky

And not a single star in sight

Thinking I was doomed for that day

To end my night in loneliness I lay

For I couldn't find the words to pray

To whom did I wronged, is this the price to pay?

As I started to succumb to the defeat at hand

2 people I'm not that close to came over to chat

It was nice catching up after so many days apart

And once again a tint of happiness warmed my heart

We joked, we laughed

Talked about life, love and God

With another guy there with us

Things were getting further from worst

I started feeling happy again

The joy of life slowly seeping back in

Not only was I accepted

I am truly loved

The talk of birthdays came up

And they started planning for mine

When should we go out?

Can we book you for now?

They didn't know

But deep down I wondered

Who am I that God has placed me around such precious people?

We have nothing much in common

Besides our faith we're from different intakes

They're my seniors, I'm their junior

Don't even spend much time together

But yet they're inviting me into their circle

Like long lost friends there was so much giggles

My tears came and it did fall

Told them I was touched

They believed it was from laughing to hard

Doesn't matter

Because what God showed me that night

From the people that I would have never gotten in mind

That He still cares for me as I continue to stay faithful

Due to some misconceptions or miscommunication

There were some misunderstanding with these friends of mine

I've been seeking and I've been praying

Hoping that these relationships will keep on staying

Thinking that its the end

God intervened with His hand

The night I felt so miserable

Was the time He chose to bring back these people

I'll stay faithful cos God is faithful

But when I am unfaithful

God still remains faithful

I'm not using this as an excuse

But understanding where God is

That even though I may not feel Him near

I have to know that He is here

To not count on my feeling

But to stay on my knowing

And when He's not replying

I have to keep myself from sighing

But even if I try and I try

And I do it with all I am

Yet am not able to feel His presence

I will keep my faith

And not let feelings and minor hindrances

Come in the way

For how can my faith be tested?

When I can feel Him all of the time

I wouldn't need faith then

Cos I'll know that He's always there

It is when I feel His absence

And have everything going against me

When I'm down in my deepest low

Where grades are poor

And relationships are weak

When prayer meetings are dry

And emotions go wild

Then is when I can gage my faithfulness

Like if I'm walking on smooth road all of my life

No obstacles, no hindrances

No trials and no tribulations

There wouldn't be room for faith

Cos everything is going my way

But if I stand on a cliff

And with a leap I may fall to my death

Not knowing what waits below

It may be good, it may be bad

Am I ready to take that leap of faith

To know that God will save me from my problems below

To know that my enduring faithfulness

Will be returned with God's

I've just gone through that

And God has shown

That He'll take care of me

No matter what come my way

If a boyfriend can be faithful to his girlfriend

And a worker to his boss

How can it be compared

To the One who created it all?

I'm His servant and He's my master

He's my King and I'm His princess

And that is just but a part of the many reasons

Of why I will continue

STAYING FAITHFUL.