The Tornadoes inside

As I lean back in this chair thinking of what just happened

Trying to focus on what You're telling me

And at the same time reliving the scenario just now

I feel a turmoil, so subtly fierce inside

Not understanding but subconsciously realizing

The tornado inside of me

Looking at the stars just now

How they seemed to be shining so beautifully

Basking in their wondrous glory

You tell me You painted them for me tonight

For a scene like that I've waited and not seen

For months, hoping, believing

Not only hoping on the stars

But that change back home will start to bud

But nothing happens and all I see is a vicious cycle

Nothing unlike what I feel inside

The merciless wind stirring up of filthy dirt

Getting into my eyes

Making me cry

I let the tears fall and emotions unwind

Hoping that as they sleep

No one will hear me cry

Nothing is said off my lips

Though its a ten-thousand word essay I want to release

The mix feelings and emotions I can't resist

And now You're telling me this

Help me obey and in my heart believe

Goosebumps cover me

Because Your sweet presence is all over me

But my feelings don't get numbed

Instead, from tears of defeat

They turn to tears of relieve

Knowing that you will tame that tornado raging inside of me

My Shammah

Never leaving me nor forsaking me

I look up the skies and the stars are erased

One second they're there
The next they're gone

But You stay the same through the ages

And Your love never changes 

Thank You God

I place the tornadoes into Your hands

For the winds shall cease at You command

And that cycle will subside by Your Grace

I place my future and emotions into Your crafting

Including the ugly things

Like the tornadoes inside....