Thursday, November 27, 2008

people all around me

People all around me
Judging me from my appearance
My actions, my sayings

People all around me
Think they can sum up a person
With just a look of the eye

People all around me
Just look on the outside
But never on the outside


Why do I care so much
Of what people think of me
For its silly on my part
to even think like that

They think they know a whole lot about me
But they actually don't
For the one who knows me best
Is the One above

So the next time if I do the same
Judging people for the sake
I'll remember the words from someone I look up to
Rachel Scott- a martyr of faith
whom was also my age =)
"always be a see-througher and not a look-atter"

So the next time people think
They know something about me
But it's actually not true
I'll just let it go
If it's a compliment, I'll keep it
If it's a comment, I'll work on myself
But I wont let it tear me down
No, not this time
For I know we're not perfect
And I'm happy, content and grateful
with just the way I am!!!

*this is just something that came while i was studying, suddenly putting myself in the shoes of celebrities, world leaders, big shots and even typical teenagers. the pressure they feel under the magnifying glass of people whom have nothing better to do than judge. But don't get me wrong, I love writing and I write this in a very optimistic way. peace!!! (also a reminder for myself not to judge others..hehe)

Thursday, November 6, 2008

These last days of my high school life

fui soon, christina and me

me and my beloved class teacher

5 Dinamik- class of 2008!!!(we can really go!)

These days in school were a blast!!! Not only cos we got to be closer to each other, we could all just be ourselves with no masks on. I guess this happens when you grow up and start to mature, realising that you wont be able to see some ppl you love ever again in your life. However I hope that we'll all be able to meet again someday.

me & my snow girl-sharon

shan & howe with Jason being his typical self--a lamp post
(lol, no offense Jason)

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

The 4 tears i cried

tried not to cry
not wanting to give in to the devil
held my tears so tight
prayin that it will not fall
but the rejection felt
from friends I thought who were more than just friends
cut so deeply in my heart
couldnt hold it any longer
but just to let go
those tears that fell were
tears of sorrow

tried not to cry
wanting to be strong
telling myself
I'm worth what I worth
made in God's image
beautiful in His eye
but thoughts came in
and crowded my mind
unpleasant ones
that were not good for my soul
those tears that fell were
tears of defeat

tried not too cry
but it was comin too strong
talked to God
my 1 true friend
what i heard?
"Don't worry, I am here"
heaviness left my heart
and suddenly i realize
that whoever puts you down
may not even realize
for the devil uses the ones we love
to bring us heartache
but that wont stop me
for being grateful to my friends
for we are only human
and we all make mistakes
those tears that fell
were tears of relief

tried not to cry
but just couldnt help it
not only was I feelin God's presence
He was showing me His love
not only in the spiritual realm
but in the physical too
from who else but my beloved sis
still lying on my bed
I hear my sis from the top bunk
singin to this octopus soft toy
givin it a name
Octaleg or Octyleg
couldnt make it out
she didnt know i was cryin
for I pretended I was asleep
but her voice and her presence
was kinda like a wink from God-
therapy to my heartache
tellin me that He has placed ppl in my life
who love me for who I am
His way of tellin me
that though I have doubts
Doubts of whether He's listening
as a friend or a daddy or a
A King to his princess
He has assured me that i can find a friend
in people around me
and also in Him
and those tears that fell
were tears of JOY!!!

this afternoon. comin back from school, felt a slight depression comin.went straight to bed. Asked and beggged God to take it away cos i don't wanna fall back into the cycle, the same time last yr (more will be said in another post) writing kinda for my own therapy