Saturday, October 31, 2009

Will You be my Escape?

Will You be my Escape?
During times I feel down
Feeling all alone
With no one to hold

Will You be my Escape?
In times of need
Feeling I'm useless
Always a nuisance

Will You be my Escape?
When I feel I'm not me
Always doing things wrong
The one to be blamed

Will You be my Escape?
Cos I don't feel like myself
I need a place to be released
Off all my duties & insecurities

Will You be my Escape?
I feel I'm on the outside looking in
That person there just ain't me
How can I help her, is there a way?

Will You be my Escape?
And help me out of here
Free me from this deception
That's giving me a misconception

Will You be my Escape?
For I know I'll have all of eternity
To be with You up there
But for now I'm down here, so please be with me

Will You be my Escape?
And let me soar like an eagle
A bird free from its cage
Leaving the past behind

Will You be my Escape?
Just for Once
Let me feel like Cinderella
Your daughter, A true princess

Will You be my Escape?
I really need You now
For nothings else matters
When You're always here....

Will You be my Escape?
It's not just a fantasy
For I'll come back to reality
And try to make things right

Will You be my Escape?
Show me a glimpse of Heaven
Where there's no suffering
No hurt, no pain

Will You be my Escape?
I think You will be
For You're Supernatural
Making me feel essential

Kids these days

Kids these days... Many people are talking about kids these days, like how they act all grown-up, disrespect, run around, cry out loud! And so much more... I work pretty close with kids these past year, and I think they should get a benefit of a doubt too. I'm not saying that it's ok the way they act what they act, but still, kids will be kids, so why don't we just take in their purity, innocence, love, cuteness, care-free attitude and correct them from their mistakes rather than nag them every single time they make the slightest bit of mistake.

Kids these days
Some sigh at the thought of it
Always concluding the acts
Of these young innocent souls

They really are a blessing you know?
Rather than a burden
Don't think too lowly of them
For they are all God's beloved

I never thought of them the way
I think of them now
These past year has really given me
Revelation after revelation

Of the wonders of these kids
They bless you like no other
With no intention they give without realizing
Just living their lives as a gift for us

Ok, they have their fair share of misconduct
But so do we don't you think?
For we all can act childish at some point
Not setting a good example yet always judgemental

Even recieved a little card from a young boy
Just to say he loves me
And wants God to bless me
His gesture speaks more to me than a thousand words

Or how so many children say they love you
And wanna buy you something
Although they may not have money
They love you for who you are deep within

They don't care if you have pimples
And wear glasses
Or don't follow the latest trends
They accept you with no strings attached

These past year my eyes are truly opened
Kinda like looking through the eyes of God
Finally seeing why God speaks so highly of children
For they really are small people with huge hearts

We can learn a lesson or two from them
For they too are great teachers
Not to scold or shout at us
But to just BE

Jesus loves the little children
I think there's more depth to that than we think
We are all His children
Although not all of us are little

We should take from them
What God desires
Learn what is exemplified
Their love, their purity, their kindness

Many can say that they are a nuisance
I have many friends who can't stand kids
Say their not patient enough
But I guess it's our lost not to be with them

For they open our eyes to things unseen
Unlocking our hearts to pure random acts of kindness
Exposing our souls to the gift of God's love
For they love with no limits

And give with no desire of return
Play with all they're hearts
And lift their hands in prayer
Giving God their full attention

They can be naughty, they can be playful
They're crying may be a soar to our ears
Sometimes unreadable or even hard to decipher
But whatsoever I'll always be in wonder with the ways of...


Wednesday, October 28, 2009

The gift of a Child

The gift of a child
One of the best gift we can receive
A gifts that's so priceless
It's full of surprises

The gift of a child
Covers so many other gifts
Friendship, Love, Innocence
In them there's no pretense

Sometimes we take this gift for granted
Shutting them up
Closing them tight
Not letting them show off their beauty within

There's times we think they're a nuisance
Bothering and time consuming
Never realizing that they're the ones
Who make life worth living

The gift of a child
I open these presents everyday
And everyday I see a new gift
Each one as enlightening as the other

The gift of a child
They just make my day
One even gave me a little card
Just to say a "I love you"

They're always there whether you like it or not
Well I love their company
For you'll never get bored
For they're funny, loving & caring

Sometimes they drive you up the wall
Sometimes they make you laugh your heads off
Sometimes they make you wanna just squeeze their cheeks
Cos their just so cute you can't resist

The gift of a child
I'm glad God gave me that gift
For it also means a lot to Him
He looks beyond what can be seen

The gift of a child
I think its time we give them our gift
The gift of Faith, Hope & Love
For Jesus is the best gift they can receive

I'll forever treasure my moments with them
For time is running & almost up
I'll have to continue my journey in life
Making these moments not present but memories

Time spent in the Kindy is ever so worth it
I don't even regret it one bit
I see different kind of gifts
Wrapped with colorful & different paper

They really are full of surprises
So never despise the little children
For they're part of our family in Christ
A gift that's so precious...


Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Following the Leader!

On the way home from school, I was feeling really tired. So I just rested my head on the headrest in the car and close my eyes, not long after, little Howie (not his real name) beside me took my hand bag out of my arms and hook his into the sling and protectively pressed it against his tummy, mirroring me. He closed his eyes and tried to sleep. It really caught me off-guard. I wondered why he did that....

I am still wondering, maybe he wants to be like me, or maybe he's fascinated by a girly handback, maybe he just did it on impulse, I'll never know. Asked him, but he doesn't speak very well yet for he's only 3. He looked really funny, laying back on his schoolbag, Roxy bag on his tummy with his hand looped through it pressing it with the other hand and eyes closed. Made me remember of the song "Following the Leader" from Snow White. And also how the world laughs at Christianity, the way we just follow God no matter how funny it may seem.

I'm following the leader
Not "Doc" though from the 7 dwarfs
I'm following someone special
Even more awesome than "Happy" or "Sneezy"

He isn't grouchy like "Grumpy"
Or shy like "Bashful"
Doesn't have big ears like "Dopey"
And isn't like "Sleepy" for He never sleeps!

Always on the lookout
For His children and followers
Oh yes, He is
My Daddy and King!

I'll follow Him no matter what people say
For I have great mighty people to follow each day
Some maybe here some maybe gone
But what they have done will never be foregone

Like Noah who built "The Ark"
Or Moses taking on Egypt
Like David too
Whom worshiped God partially unclothed

These people gave everything to God
Their pride, dignity, status & wealth
Plans, thoughts, future & pain
Family, friends and everything in between

They were ridiculed, mocked
Laughed at and despised
Yet they only cared of what God thought
Never letting reality hinder their devotion for Him

And yet they moved mountains
Started a new race
Set captives free
One even called "A Man after God's own Heart"

I want to be like them
Though it may not seem dignified
For Him I'll do anything
From singing to being undignified

For there's this cool song I once heard
"I will dance, I will sing, to be glad for my King
Nothing Lord hindering, Your passion in my soul"
And then in the chorus

"I'll become, even more undignified than this,
Some may say it's foolishness,
But I'll become, even more undignified than this
Leave my pride by my side"...

I wanna really walk my talk
And play out what I sing
To be true to myself
By following and being true to God

People may laugh
People may curse
It really is a harsh world out there
But nothing's gonna come in my way

Just like the game "Simon Says"
I'll just do what "Jesus Says!"
For the reason and for the cause
I'll be sold out to Him who saves souls

For I'll always remember
To never back out on my leader
Saying "He's my God, no matter what"
And chickening out is not an option

For He's up there
Looking down on me
Saying "That's my girl, no matter what"
This I know for sure

For He'll never leave us
For this I'm assured
For He's Jehovah Shammah
"The Lord who never leaves us or forsake us"

That's why I am and will forever be

(The Divine One & only)

Doubt is creeping in

Doubt is creeping in
And I just don't like it
It makes its entrance slowly
Without a single sound

I catch myself thinking
Is there really a God?
Does Heaven & Hell exist?
Are there really Dark Forces?

What am I to do
For I was brought up believing this stuff
But why do I feel skeptical
When deep down I should know for sure

"Doubt"-I hate the word
For it makes me seem ungodly
Mind filled with doubts
Tactics of Satan without a doubt

Its been said the more you're high in God
The higher the risk of getting attack by Satan
So how should I go about
Making me in the middle with His assurance around

I'll just have to count more on my faith
And less on my feelings
For this choose my head over my heart
Hope it wouldn't be too hard

For my mind is a battlefield
And I really want to win
To fight my thoughts
That says there's no God

I'm only human
That's why I need God
To help me in this battle
To gain the victory

Human Nature to God's Holiness is dead
And right now my humanely thoughts
Would wanna give in
Therefore I need's God's wisdom even all the more

Halloween's coming soon
And I have friends celebrating
Just found out it's Satan's Birthday
Even more do we need to fight and pray

So right now when the devil is out on the look
I'll be watching too
For I wanna be a watchmen for God
Praying and interceding for those who are lost

Doubt is creeping in
But it's also flooding out
For in God I rest my case
Knowing He's the only way!

Monday, October 26, 2009

Content with Life

Everyday we take things for granted
Not appreciating the car we have
The roof over our heads
The free education
Let alone the 'almost' clean air we breath in
At least we're still alive!

Driving back home
I thought of the conversation I had
The things shared
The miracles and blessings God offered
And just couldnt help
But sigh and be in awe of what God has relieved me off
Of all the trials and tribulations

Of course I've been through my fair share of "unfortunate events"
Talk about depression, peer pressure, rejection, self-consciousness
But God has really and I mean really spared me on other "tough stuff"
The journey I had so far has been a very humbling experience
Maybe I can share another time
When the time is right
Cos whatever shared will be a huge surprise
Except for those who witnessed the craziness of that phase

What I went through was quite big
I will say it was kinda or really like a "life or death" matter
But I learned from my mistakes
And asked for forgiveness
For I've put not only myself but those around me
Through days of sleepless nights and haunting memories

BUT for now.....

I'm content with life
For my life's not only mine
But it also belongs to God
For He knitted me in my mother's womb

I've been through happy times
I've been through tough times
But now I see the light at the end of the tunnel
Even though the tunnel was a very dark one

I'm grateful for the "Kenari" I drive
And for the Kindy I work at
For my family and friends
But mostly my faith

Don't get me wrong
I'm nobody perfect
Though I was an extreme perfectionist
A side of me that almost crippled myself

I though God was perfect
Oh well He is
But we were all born with sin
So why try the unforeseen

That's a part of me
I have left behind
For what's left ahead
Is all in God's hands

For now my heart is filled with gratitude
To the One I truly adore
I love Him so much
Words are not enough

He knows my every detail
My likes, my dislikes, my ugly side
But He is ever willing to forgive and comfort
And change me to the beauty of His own likeness

Same with you!
Just give your heart to Him
And he'll show you everything
From things unknown to infinity

Be content with life
For if you have running water
A roof over your head
And 3 meals a day

You are better than 80%
Of the worlds population
Whom don't share the same luxuries
We have but take for granted

Content with life
That's whats I'll be
For all these I don't deserve
Fallen short of the Glory of God

But He doesn't count this against me
My sins are washed away
As far as the East is from the West
With God I'll go on this quest

Sunday, October 25, 2009

How much do you love me?

Was sitting next to a girl preferably known as ''Dora" from "Dora the Explorer" in a 3 year old class while they were learning their 1,2,3's.... she's really cute but wasn't really paying attention and suddenly she looked up to me and asked," How much do you love me?"

I was quite taken aback maybe because of the sincerity and maturity of such a question coming out from a 3 year old, or maybe never in my life would someone ask me that, maybe until then...

She wasn't finished yet, she followed asking "5 or 10?" Then was when I realized to her, the fullnest of love is 10 cos her mind can only comprehend the magnitude of love as 1 to 10, 1 being the less and 10 the most!

I told her 2o, and she went "huh?".... How naive but cute of her! She said she loved me 10 and that truly made my day! Because to her mind, that's the most she can give, for she has only learned up to 10, and that to her is the most! Made me think of God's love for us and more importantly our love for God...

The fullness of love

How much is it?
Can we ever comprehend?
Have we ever felt it?

There's so many types of love
Like from the book "The 5 love languages"
But I bet there's not only 5
I'm sure there's so much more

Love undefined
The world is full of it
But are they truly pure love?
The love that warms us inside out

Singers sing about it
Actors exemplify it
But are those the right ways or words
That truly define true love?

Maybe I want a different kind of love
A love that only my Dad in Heaven could give
A love that is named "Agape"
Easy to convey

Like from "Songs of Solomon"
How it was referred to as
"Unearned love God have for humanity"
We don't deserve it, but yet He still gives it

Thank You God
For giving me Your love
I really need it
And so does the ones around me

I want to say "I Love You"
With all of my heart
Every star in the sky
Is an "I Love You" to You

If 10 is the fullest of love
Then I'll give You a million of tens
Though it may not make any sense
To a child its everything more then just sense

I don't really know how to measure love
But I know its truly endless
We really need Your ruler of love
For the love in this world never measures up

Help me bring love to those who need it
Like the kid with no pants
And the beggar with the stick
Give them feelings that only Your love can bring

Give me love like no other
And also through people and others
For you've put friends around me
That experience the same love as me

They are all part of Your family
May we give you all the Glory
Basking in Your presence
And in all the fullness of Your love

Bring love to this world
For its a necessity that's lacking
Governments talk about everything
Except the need of truly loving

Now the question isn't how much God loves us
For we know as stated in the bible
It's when God asks us
"How much do you love me?"

Whats our answer going to be?
For it'll determine the rest of our lives
The purpose and reason we're living
Care-free or God fearing

I know my answer
So how about you
We all need Gods Love
To love Him back we must do

Jesus I love you
So much more than life
That is my answer
For the moment You're gonna ask


*The last paragraph got me skeptical, cos I'm not sure whether I'm brave enough to be persecuted and lose my life, I mean we can all say that we'll never deny Christ but when the timing comes, will we chicken out? Almost rephrased it but felt in my spirit that I have to state it to be accountable to myself! So it's kinda like a promise to God.... My life is in His hands no matter what happen

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Uncontrollable Ironic Situations

As I lay my head to sleep here
Safe and Sound on my bed
Under my protective roof
Somewhere in Sumatra
Kids are being victims of a horrendous typhoon

Not only kids but adults too
The rich the poor
The ones classified as "pretty" or "ugly"
None can escape
For this natural disasters are always merciless

These rage of Mother Nature
Never cares who you are
No status stops her
For you're nothing before her
Just another small thing she ticks of with her finger

While we enjoy seafood
And fellowship round the table
Laughing & drinking to our hearts contend
People are suffering from waves of the very same sea
We caught our delicious food from

Tsunami hits
And millions go missing
The waves so fast
Coming from a distance
You wont be fast enough to say the words "run fast"

The waters swallow humans a whole
Leaving us nothing to hold
Bones and corpse lying around
Are just a small fraction
Of the aftermath of these

We go to the movies enjoying our show
Just us and the screen nothing in between
We laugh when its a happy scene
And cry when its touching
Oblivious of the earthquake happening in China

So many are suffering buried underground
Not knowing whether they're alive or dead
Rescue workers work their head off
Trying to save whats left
Of these unforgiving disaster

People are in clubs
Having the times of their lives
Smoking away & getting wasted
Living just for fun, money never an issue
While millions in Africa is dying of hunger

They are grateful for the next day they're still alive
They fight for whats right
For they fight for their lives
No designer items
Barely things for survival

These situations are beyond my control
But I know my purpose in life
And I'm gonna live life to the fullest
I may ask God why sometimes
Good things happen to bad people
And bad things happen to good people
But beyond that I'm gonna question no further
For its no use sitting here and not rising
To my own calling that was called upon me
I'll do what is right not for the sake
But for the sake of a good cause
I'm no Supergirl neither do I wanna play god
But I'm gonna make the world a better place
With the help of God
With one smile at a time
One hug, a word of comfort, an acknowledgment

My dreams to go to Africa to see the children there
But am I really ready?
And prepared to see what I'm gonna see
The hurting children
Malnutrition, HIV, Kwashiorkor
And the list goes on
Am I ready for all that?
Mentally, Physically, emotionally
And most of all spiritually
Will I start blaming God?
I sure hope not

For everything happens for a reason
And there's a season for that moment
Things are bad so we can see God's goodness in them
They are dark so we can see God's light more clearly
Bad things happen so we can see God's hand even more strongly
We just have to be optimistic
And give our lives to God
Letting Him take over
For every situation or position
That we cant control
We'll just have to leave it to God
For He's always in control

A heart made of stone

I'm sitting here on my bed
Taking in what I just heard
Didn't know it'll come so hard
Like a lightning it hit so fast

Closed the phone
And didn't know
That the tears will fall
I could not stop

He needs money
so what, I forgot
How can he scream & shout
When money is the issue that's whats about

He should be responsible
That's the way it goes
But in this weird case
Its the way around

Not earning enough to survive
Mainly because of his strong pride
Always wanting to become the boss
Whom always counts his own loss

Family and friends
Have helped all they can
But he's driven them hot
Enough for them to avoid

I'm stuck in this position
Where I really wanna help
But its a situation
Where helping seems hurting

His anger scares
And his pride kills
Everyone around him
But mostly himself

All these started
The moment he walked out on God
Never realizing his loss
Like a blind man who's lost

No one can get through to him
But some say its me and deb
Who can really talk to him
But its so hard, you wanna give up

It seems like his heart is made out of stone
So hard that even rain cannot soften it
But I've seen him cried
And deep down I know he's ever so vulnerable

Is God in the picture?
I catch myself wondering
If He really is
Why all these suffering?

Help me dear Lord
To get through to him
To go past that wall
He's build inside of him

To past that strong frame
To past that broken soul
To past that weakened spirit
And straight to his wounded heart

That heartbeat that goes after the wrong things
Beauty, pleasure and lust
Money, riches and power
None that's on God's list

Sometimes to me it seems impossible
Like I'm trying the unthinkable
Reaching the unreachable
Seems like its unachievable

But God with You
All things are possible
So I put aside my fears and doubts
Expecting true Divine Intervention

I know he'll be saved one day
And I hope & believe that day is near
For he has studied the bible & talked to You before
Wont be strange if he does it again

I'm still waiting for the day
Where I can call him my silver lining
For I'm his flesh and blood
Yet I feel far apart

Feeling like Cinderella
I'm waiting for my fairytale ending
Not for Prince Charming
But for someone far more special

My Father in heaven
Is better than the godmother in the story
For He doesn't need a magic wand
To make things turn out the way we want

So I'm eager for the day
Where I'll spend in eternity
Praising God forevermore
With the loved ones I truly adore

Hope and pray that he's on that list
Really seems like a faraway dream
Those that only come true
"In your dreams"

It seems like a fairytale
But I know its way more than that
Its the truth
And the truth will set him free!