Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Bring it on!

I had a bad day
K, so it started from yesterday
But didn't know it will spill over to today
And it hurts even as I say

Taking so many posts
Is it worth the cost?

Taking on the leadership of prayer meeting
And there's already people questioning my ways
What am I to do?
Seriously am so konfewsed!

People can really bring you down, don't they?
Whether it's inferiority, timidity or just plain jealousy
Don't understand why they can be so mean
Making every opportunity easier to give up and give in

But I'm glad that God's giving me these duties
Just the fact that I'm called and chosen
Makes me feel honored that He's trusting me
Giving me assignments that aren't always easy

And the post for E & F in CF
Thought it would be easy
But it takes more than that
Thank God for good mentors at hand

God is good
Giving me friends to put me on perspective
Not condoning self-pity
But righting priorities

So when I fall down and fall down again
I'll just pick myself up just yet again
For God has my back
And my faith still intact
Friends with spiritual maturity
Giving advice so profoundly
I have nothing to loose
And everything to gain

Yes, there will be a few people in my way
Friends that seem more like stumbling blocks
No, I won't let them make me feel inferior no more
For my identity is in Christ
And I'm saying that unapologetically

So say what you wanna say
And do what you wanna do
But remember when your laughing at the way I communicate with God
You're kinda laughing at God Himself...

He has my back
So just BRING IT ON!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

My Little Sis

"She sips her drink while her sister cuts her meat"

Haha..!That was the sentence our friend Jonathan said of me and Deb in a whisper into his fist while childishly filming a fake documentary of us during

Cynthia's farewell dinner. He was so impressed by the "so-called'' love me and my sis had that he wanted to do a documentary on "Sisterly Love" or something like that. Seriously? I just think he misses his sister back in NZ. The whole night he was in awe of the way Deb and I talked to each other, shared our food and respected each other. It was kinda stupid! lol, for him to be so amazed by it all cos I didn't really think it was anything special. It was us just being our normal selves! He was kinda distracting, talking into his own fist as a mic and pretending to describe our every move and act just like what you see in National Geography where the commentator speaks about the deer, lion or giraffe. We actually felt like animals!

When I asked him why is he doing that and to stop, he even went, "When you see National Geography documenting on deers, do you ever see a deer talk to the camera? no right? And that is exactly what you are doing! don't talk to the cameraman, just continue!" Talk about the utter discomfort of being filmed by a hand-shaped camera with a fake mic and every move described plus being compared to deers, of all things!! He kept saying "oh, I can feel the love" and "Oh, I may just cry here"...dramatic much! He also did the trick all reality shows do now to make things more interesting and controversial - make us fight. It didn't work cos the whole situation was hilarious and him doing that made it more funny than sad!

But somehow, I think the love between us sisters have gone deeper. Just like the saying "you don't know what you have til it's gone" means literally. Me going to KL have made me appreciate her a whole lot more!

My little Sis

Someone I miss

How I do wish

That I can give her a kiss!

(haha! cos she's such a tomboy she can't

even bear me kissing her on the cheek)

My little sis

Loves playing the bass

She scored so well

I'm truly amazed

(distinction for Grade 5 and one

of the highest score in Malaysia)

My little sis

Is so humble she'll be in a fit

If she sees what I wrote above

For she rather keeps
Her achievements to herself

(she's so humble a prophet had to tell her

its ok cos she's humble enough)

My little sis

Is crazy with cats

A cat-lover at heart

She even loves the strays

(she sometimes still talks about our cat-Angeldeo

who went missing a long time ago)

My little sis

Is good in almost everything

Studies, music and handling our youth group

She has it all under her wing

(and she does them without stress

but ease, how does she do that?

Must be God, =p)

My little sis

Is not so little anymore

She's bigger than me

Lots have thought that she's my older sis

(plus the increase in height after me leaving for KL,

just one inch and she jumps for joy..haih)

My little sis

Is growing up so fast

I bet with wings she can soar

For she's truly talented right to her core

(I hope her God-given talents would bring her far)

My little sis

Though I'm envious of her

Every time I see her play the guitar

I'll love her forever

(when could I ever play like she does?

Lord help me)

My little sis

Is growing in God's way

Telling me to not backslide in college

Praying for me as so she says

(I can really see her love for God)

My little sis

Is maturing so fast

Her "littleness" would not last

And the past would be "the past"

I wish I can freeze time

To go back and relive the past years

For I doubt I've truly appreciated her

And now I wanna redeem that

For we're growing up a tad too fast

Me off to college and she very well soon

We may never stay in the same house

If circumstances keeps us apart

I pray that she would keep that love inside of her

And never ever let it go

The love she has for God, friends and cats

Family, music and bass

That she may flourish into a beautiful flower

However tomboy she is

You never know she may one day be more girlier than me =)

Thank you God for giving me Deb

The best sister I could ever have

No one else could take her place

Help her in her journey ahead

As she pursue the things she loves

If its music show those who are against it

For I believe You have given the talents she deserve

For a greater purpose of Yours

(oh, did I tell you that she plays the drums, keyboard and guitar as well?

Any guy would be so lucky to have her,hehe...)

Bless her as she blesses others

With her strong but pure character

Pushing others to the right path

Never compromising her values

And thank you God for Jonathan!

For without him doing the lame documentary

I would not have seen what he saw

A bond shared between two sisters

Unconditional love and care

If it wasn't for him

I wouldn't have known how deeply and truly I love


Deb and her self-proclaimed million dollar song