What matters most...

Driving back home at 11.30 at night
Felt really contented and grateful
That I had a friend who could help me
Sort out my bank statements
The acronyms I couldn't make out

Although I lost a lot of money
From a friend I thought was more than just funny
The pain is starting to subside
No more a matter which coincides
My thoughts and thinking, making them right

Hard to comprehend the matter that happened
Harder to get over it and manage my emotions
But life is tough, oh yes it is
And whatever life throws at us
Don't take it alone, but together with God

I've done my crying
I've done my weeping
But that's over now
And I can't let my emotions run wild
Life goes on, and it's how I take it

I'm glad of my response to this
The fact that I didn't fall into depression
Making it a worst situation
I talked to my close ones
And most importantly talked to God

Even though it was a tough one
I embraced myself
Not letting it get to me
With the help of loved ones and God
I came out of this learning a true lesson

I wont be too naive and gullible
The next time I come across someone with compassion
Although I feel the compassion
It's not necessarily I act on it
For God knows we're no superhero

So as I lay my head to go to sleep
I thank God for everything
His blessings and the different ways
Of teaching me stuff
That comes out of true life lessons

I don't look at this matter with hurt & regret
But of course I learned my lesson
Even paid a huge price
My family and I
So I'm ever grateful to the ones God placed around me

Although tough situations happens
Making us go hay-wire
Even though the sky may fall down
I know my God loves me
And that's what matters the most!

They see what no one else sees

I just realize

That children see what no on else sees

I mean the things are there
But we're too busy to notice
Never really realizing

Whether it's a pair of new shoes
A new scrunchie
The flower on my dress
Or the fact that I didn't wear my contacts
And had to wear my glasses

They see and comment
Its usually good though
Or in pure wonder
Just for the sake of asking
Or for the sake of knowing

The slightest new thing they see
Never fails to delight them
They find beauty
In all things around
Never finding a reason to sulk

"Teacher you wear new earring?"
"Why your hair tie so nice?"
"Why you wear glasses, you cannot see ah?"
"The flower on your dress so nice!"
"Teacher you buy new shoes ah?"

All these questions
Always catch me in wonder
Of the little things in life we take for granted
Always working, never relaxing
Disabling us too find beauty in the right things

We have to take a step back
And breath in the goodness
Of what God has given us
From the mountains & oceans
To the smile on someones face

To be grateful and content
Not being caught up in all our busyness
Though some people take pride in that
To take pleasure
From the littlest details in our lives

These children kinda mirror God
Seeing what no one else sees
Our feelings and emotions inside
Covered & hidden by a mask
Or by the things we busy ourselves with

God sees everything
Our past, our present, our future
Our hopes, our dreams, our failures
Everything from the inside out
He sees when no one else sees

So don't worry and just be blessed
For our Dad in Heaven
Knows us through & through
Cast our fears upon Him
And He will give us rest

We should learn from Him & these kids
To not just look but see
Whether its the fidgeting of a friend
Or the beauty of a butterfly
To embrace every passing moment

Like a girl I look up to
Rachel Scott- a martyr of faith
Always wanting to be a
"See-Througher" and not a "Look-Atter"
To see within and not look on the surface

Let's all be like that
And take a step back
To see the beauty in life
And learn what the children do
The way they resemble God

To see what no one else sees......

Will You be my Escape?

Will You be my Escape?
During times I feel down
Feeling all alone
With no one to hold

Will You be my Escape?
In times of need
Feeling I'm useless
Always a nuisance

Will You be my Escape?
When I feel I'm not me
Always doing things wrong
The one to be blamed

Will You be my Escape?
Cos I don't feel like myself
I need a place to be released
Off all my duties & insecurities

Will You be my Escape?
I feel I'm on the outside looking in
That person there just ain't me
How can I help her, is there a way?

Will You be my Escape?
And help me out of here
Free me from this deception
That's giving me a misconception

Will You be my Escape?
For I know I'll have all of eternity
To be with You up there
But for now I'm down here, so please be with me

Will You be my Escape?
And let me soar like an eagle
A bird free from its cage
Leaving the past behind

Will You be my Escape?
Just for Once
Let me feel like Cinderella
Your daughter, A true princess

Will You be my Escape?
I really need You now
For nothings else matters
When You're always here....

Will You be my Escape?
It's not just a fantasy
For I'll come back to reality
And try to make things right

Will You be my Escape?
Show me a glimpse of Heaven
Where there's no suffering
No hurt, no pain

Will You be my Escape?
I think You will be
For You're Supernatural
Making me feel essential

Kids these days

Kids these days... Many people are talking about kids these days, like how they act all grown-up, disrespect, run around, cry out loud! And so much more... I work pretty close with kids these past year, and I think they should get a benefit of a doubt too. I'm not saying that it's ok the way they act what they act, but still, kids will be kids, so why don't we just take in their purity, innocence, love, cuteness, care-free attitude and correct them from their mistakes rather than nag them every single time they make the slightest bit of mistake.

Kids these days

Some sigh at the thought of it

Always concluding the acts

Of these young innocent souls

They really are a blessing you know?

Rather than a burden

Don't think too lowly of them

For they are all God's beloved

I never thought of them the way

I think of them now

These past year has really given me

Revelation after revelation

Of the wonders of these kids

They bless you like no other

With no intention they give without realizing

Just living their lives as a gift for us

Ok, they have their fair share of misconduct

But so do we don't you think?

For we all can act childish at some point

Not setting a good example yet always judgemental

Even recieved a little card from a young boy

Just to say he loves me

And wants God to bless me

His gesture speaks more to me than a thousand words

Or how so many children say they love you

And wanna buy you something

Although they may not have money

They love you for who you are deep within

They don't care if you have pimples

And wear glasses

Or don't follow the latest trends

They accept you with no strings attached

These past year my eyes are truly opened
Kinda like looking through the eyes of God

Finally seeing why God speaks so highly of children

For they really are small people with huge hearts

We can learn a lesson or two from them

For they too are great teachers

Not to scold or shout at us

But to just BE

Jesus loves the little children

I think there's more depth to that than we think

We are all His children

Although not all of us are little

We should take from them

What God desires

Learn what is exemplified

Their love, their purity, their kindness

Many can say that they are a nuisance

I have many friends who can't stand kids

Say their not patient enough

But I guess it's our lost not to be with them

For they open our eyes to things unseen

Unlocking our hearts to pure random acts of kindness

Exposing our souls to the gift of God's love

For they love with no limits

And give with no desire of return

Play with all they're hearts

And lift their hands in prayer

Giving God their full attention

They can be naughty, they can be playful

They're crying may be a soar to our ears

Sometimes unreadable or even hard to decipher

But whatsoever I'll always be in wonder with the ways of...

KIDS THESE DAYS!

The gift of a Child

The gift of a child

One of the best gift we can receive
A gifts that's so priceless
It's full of surprises

The gift of a child
Covers so many other gifts
Friendship, Love, Innocence
In them there's no pretense

Sometimes we take this gift for granted
Shutting them up
Closing them tight
Not letting them show off their beauty within

There's times we think they're a nuisance
Bothering and time consuming
Never realizing that they're the ones
Who make life worth living


The gift of a child
I open these presents everyday
And everyday I see a new gift
Each one as enlightening as the other

The gift of a child
They just make my day
One even gave me a little card
Just to say a "I love you"

They're always there whether you like it or not
Well I love their company
For you'll never get bored
For they're funny, loving & caring

Sometimes they drive you up the wall
Sometimes they make you laugh your heads off
Sometimes they make you wanna just squeeze their cheeks
Cos their just so cute you can't resist

The gift of a child
I'm glad God gave me that gift
For it also means a lot to Him
He looks beyond what can be seen

The gift of a child
I think its time we give them our gift
The gift of Faith, Hope & Love
For Jesus is the best gift they can receive

I'll forever treasure my moments with them
For time is running & almost up
I'll have to continue my journey in life
Making these moments not present but memories

Time spent in the Kindy is ever so worth it
I don't even regret it one bit
I see different kind of gifts
Wrapped with colorful & different paper

They really are full of surprises
So never despise the little children
For they're part of our family in Christ
A gift that's so precious...

THE GIFT OF A CHILD!

Following the Leader!

On the way home from school, I was feeling really tired. So I just rested my head on the headrest in the car and close my eyes, not long after, little Howie (not his real name) beside me took my hand bag out of my arms and hook his into the sling and protectively pressed it against his tummy, mirroring me. He closed his eyes and tried to sleep. It really caught me off-guard. I wondered why he did that....

I am still wondering, maybe he wants to be like me, or maybe he's fascinated by a girly handback, maybe he just did it on impulse, I'll never know. Asked him, but he doesn't speak very well yet for he's only 3. He looked really funny, laying back on his schoolbag, Roxy bag on his tummy with his hand looped through it pressing it with the other hand and eyes closed. Made me remember of the song "Following the Leader" from Snow White. And also how the world laughs at Christianity, the way we just follow God no matter how funny it may seem.

I'm following the leader
Not "Doc" though from the 7 dwarfs
I'm following someone special
Even more awesome than "Happy" or "Sneezy"

He isn't grouchy like "Grumpy"
Or shy like "Bashful"
Doesn't have big ears like "Dopey"
And isn't like "Sleepy" for He never sleeps!

Always on the lookout
For His children and followers
Oh yes, He is
My Daddy and King!

I'll follow Him no matter what people say
For I have great mighty people to follow each day
Some maybe here some maybe gone
But what they have done will never be foregone

Like Noah who built "The Ark"
Or Moses taking on Egypt
Like David too
Whom worshiped God partially unclothed

These people gave everything to God
Their pride, dignity, status & wealth
Plans, thoughts, future & pain
Family, friends and everything in between

They were ridiculed, mocked
Laughed at and despised
Yet they only cared of what God thought
Never letting reality hinder their devotion for Him

And yet they moved mountains
Started a new race
Set captives free
One even called "A Man after God's own Heart"

I want to be like them
Though it may not seem dignified
For Him I'll do anything
From singing to being undignified

For there's this cool song I once heard
"I will dance, I will sing, to be glad for my King
Nothing Lord hindering, Your passion in my soul"
And then in the chorus

"I'll become, even more undignified than this,
Some may say it's foolishness,
But I'll become, even more undignified than this
Leave my pride by my side"...

I wanna really walk my talk
And play out what I sing
To be true to myself
By following and being true to God

People may laugh
People may curse
It really is a harsh world out there
But nothing's gonna come in my way

Just like the game "Simon Says"
I'll just do what "Jesus Says!"
For the reason and for the cause
I'll be sold out to Him who saves souls

For I'll always remember
To never back out on my leader
Saying "He's my God, no matter what"
And chickening out is not an option

For He's up there
Looking down on me
Saying "That's my girl, no matter what"
This I know for sure

For He'll never leave us
For this I'm assured
For He's Jehovah Shammah
"The Lord who never leaves us or forsake us"

That's why I am and will forever be

FOLLOWING THE LEADER!!!
(The Divine One & only)

Doubt is creeping in

Doubt is creeping in
And I just don't like it
It makes its entrance slowly
Without a single sound

I catch myself thinking
Is there really a God?
Does Heaven & Hell exist?
Are there really Dark Forces?

What am I to do
For I was brought up believing this stuff
But why do I feel skeptical
When deep down I should know for sure

"Doubt"-I hate the word
For it makes me seem ungodly
Mind filled with doubts
Tactics of Satan without a doubt

Its been said the more you're high in God
The higher the risk of getting attack by Satan
So how should I go about
Making me in the middle with His assurance around

I'll just have to count more on my faith
And less on my feelings
For this choose my head over my heart
Hope it wouldn't be too hard

For my mind is a battlefield
And I really want to win
To fight my thoughts
That says there's no God

I'm only human
That's why I need God
To help me in this battle
To gain the victory

Human Nature to God's Holiness is dead
And right now my humanely thoughts
Would wanna give in
Therefore I need's God's wisdom even all the more

Halloween's coming soon
And I have friends celebrating
Just found out it's Satan's Birthday
Even more do we need to fight and pray

So right now when the devil is out on the look
I'll be watching too
For I wanna be a watchmen for God
Praying and interceding for those who are lost

Doubt is creeping in
But it's also flooding out
For in God I rest my case
Knowing He's the only way!