He is SO close

Been waking up earlier and earlier each day

Don't know why, don't know how

Is it the stress of exams?

God wanting me to pray?

It's just weird. 

Cos I'm a sleeper.

Never had the discipline of waking up by myself

Throughout the whole of my high school

From waking up at 8 to 6

And now 4.30 in the morning

What's going on with me?

Anyways, whether its a wake-up call from God or not

I can't go back to sleep

So the past few days have been filled with

Early morning walks with the Lord <3

Today was a but different

Since its a weekend and most hostelians were back home

I could pray in tounges

Strong tounges out loud

The feeling was awesome

Prayed for a few people

Situations and circumstances

When there were no more words

Tongues =)

Saw my favorite guard and went over to chat with him

It was 6 in the morning

What was I thinking?

Just felt that he was so close to the Kingdom of God

He told me about his life, his worries

His wife, his family

And that he's coming to the end of his life

And would be going home soon

IF ONLY HE KNEW MY GOD

Lesson unexpected-

He told me to treasure my mom

She's the only one on earth

Not someone I can buy from the grocery store

That when I get married one day

To give my husband another 100% of my love

And not divide it among both

That way my mom still receives the same 100% she always had

Unlike him who kinda forgot about his mom

Because he shared his love between his mom and wife

So his mom only received 50% of his love in that time

And now he regrets it

What a cute doctrine,ay?

He also said that after meeting me

I've put some ideas in his head

And got him thinking

"What is life?"

He's decided to resign end of this year

Because he'd rather have a 9 to 5 job

To be able to sleep with his wife and kids at night

And not torture himself with a job which needs him awake

When everyone's dreaming

Not sure whether that's a good idea

Cos it means lesser time for me to share God with Him

And to let him know life isn't about worries and doubts

But about Jesus and the peace and happiness He can give

Something wonderful which he said too

That even the birds don't have to worry bout what they'll eat

Yet we humans strive for provision and food

Rings a bell?

"Look at the birds of the air; 

they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, 

and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. 

Are you not much more valuable than they?"

-Matt 6:26-

Not sure whether he read that in the Koran or something

But I believe its not by coincidence

I wanted to say how valuable he is

But my reasoning came in the way and I just didn't know what to say

Hopefully I can meet him later as I go to church

And give him the answer straight out of the bible

Which he quoted from without finishing the sentence 

That yes, birds have nothing to worry about

Because our Heavenly Father cares for them

But He cares for us more!!!

I pray for him everyday I pass the guard house

That God may open his heart and enlighten him

That he may realize that God does not give suffering

But peace, joy and love

All that this guard needs right now

I'm glad that I've put ideas and thoughts into his mind

Without really realizing

Should be the power of God moving

Don't underestimate any single conversation

It just might be an open door we can't see

He also asked a very good question

Since he's so intrigued by the freedom and care-free life birds have

He wondered where do they die

Good question

Where do birds die?

We see them flying everywhere
But  unlike dead dogs, cats and mice lying on the grounds

We don't see birds falling to their deaths....

Anyways

I pray before he leaves this place

I'll have the guts to not just stop at sharing Jesus with him

But to ask whether he wants Jesus in

Because through the many dialogues over the weeks

I find that

He is just so close.....

Asia Ablaze

Going to Asia Ablaze put my perspectives in place. I'm so glad I went! Thanks to Bong Yang for the constant persuading, my mom for the great encouragement and Amanda for accompanying me, I don't regret a single bit! (Even though it means skipping classes :P) It's been awhile since I felt the power of God and the move of the Holy Spirit and after experiencing it again, I realized just how much I missed it. (no wonder the dry season, most churches find it weird!) But I love the Holy Spirit and it's manifestation. So many things happened in these 3 days with Dr. Newberry and Pastor. Rodney Howard-Browne and his wife Adonica. These are really anointed people of God and I salute them, despite the backfiring and mouth-slandering towards them from people who spread disunity. I never had holy laughter this "bad" until the 2 people at my sides holding my hands had to bear with my jumping, shaking and hysterical laughs! Though it seemed undignified, I enjoyed every moment of it.

So the tongue issue that has always been a controversy (but new to me until I came to KL being exposed to so many denominations) was confronted. Being toss in the wind for so long and sitting on the fence, I have come to a decision that we NEED tongues! Think about it, imagine revival......without tongues. How can we see revival without the manifestation of the Holy Spirit in the form of Holy laughter, tounges, shaking, Glory Encounters and being drunk in the Spirit? If we continue to box up the move of the Holy Spirit, He may just pass us by and move on and I just don't want that to happen, especially for where I am right now- TAR college. I respect those who think that tongues are not needed and are more word based. But imagine a "word-based" revival. No lifting hands, no moving, nothing. "Revival's here! Everyone take out your bibles." Loving God is an inward expression that needs to be expressed. I would agree to disagree on this matter, as long as the fundamental is loving God. Anyways, we can have unity in diversity, and we need unity and not uniformity, but what if "this" uniformity means bringing heaven down? Don't we all want that?  I'm sorry for the tone here, I apologize for that but sometimes it can be so frustrating when people start questioning and reasoning or even ridiculing God's anointed like Ps. Rodney. However, I don't apologize on my conviction because I have experienced God and I won't compromise. I would still agree to disagree but I won't stay neutral cos that to me, just seems lukewarm. Cheers!

My new family, World Harvest Church =)

Credits to Jetaime for this photo! Thank you! 

Proud of you

It's been 6 years since we've met

And now looking at you

I see a whole new person

The girl I knew had her head down

The girl I see now knows no boundaries

Coming out from where you come from

A home where wounded kids are brought

You came out of it stronger and tougher

I guess that house did good to you

And I hope lessons learnt there would never be forgotten

You have your freedom now

Use it wisely

But seriously speaking

I'm truly proud of you

Taking such a risk to come to KL

To study and be self-dependent

Not succumbing to the norm

Of how usual teenagers come out of places like that

Wanting to seek freedom

All in the name of rebellion

You found your way around KL

Through strangers that were nice

Thank God for taking care of you

And til now you're still safe and sound

I stand amaze at who you are

And what you've become

Confident, beautiful

And so independent

Not allowing the way of life or your hard environment

Stop you from reaching your dreams

You have a good job

A good boyfriend

And a good education now

Never cease thanking the Lord for them

Braces that even I can't afford

Amway supplements and a cool smartphone

I stand amaze at your self-support

Go get a bible

You can afford it 

And you really need one =P

As you continue this new phase of life

I pray that you'll grow to be more reliant on God

To know that the things of this earth may pass away

But our God would stay the same always

To seek Him first 

And let all else fall into place

That you may find a good church

And find that, your priority

Hope to stay connected to you this time round

And after all that I've seen and heard

I must say that I'm totally

Proud of who you've become.

You truly are one of my silverlinings......keep it up!

Just when I thought I wasn't good enough

Thinking I wasn't good enough that morning

God reassured me that night

Coincidence like this could never happen

It. Must. Be. God.

On my own I will never be good enough

It can only be done through His Grace and Mercy

All glory goes to Him!

She didn't even know me.

All these and she didn't even know me.

Talk about being prophetic and the God-sent answer.

I thought she had a long talk with someone who knew me well.

She didn't.

It was God.

Period.

God is awesome!!!!!!

Faith tested

It was almost 1 in the morning

And I heard her screaming

A quick "mom, I need to go

Cos I think someones in deliverance" on the phone

And my heart beats faster hoping I would not see what's been conceived

As I quickened my steps towards that piercing scream

Hoping that it would not be what it seems

I make out the people from a far sight

"Yup, it's people I know"

With a heavy heart I thought

"God, why this if it would only tarnish the name of Christians?"

Why in the open, so public, so uncontrollable

What would people think or perceive of us?

That we're out of control and hopeless?

That we can actually be possessed by the devil?

Questions and thought accompanied me as I rushed to the scene

We have gone so far to be in the favor of guards

To be genuine Christians who are accepted in hostel

But why this, why now?

The scene was something I've never dealt with before

And the help we needed was nowhere to be found

After a few phone calls for help because it was truly beyond us

The words I feared spoken

"You take the lead"

I just didn't know what to do.

I was misinformed that Satan entered

But no way can that be

Cos there's no room for anything when the Holy Spirit is present

But when you're upfront with something so extreme

All you can do
Is to do nothing but pray 

It was scary 

Everyone was praying

Young Christians with trusting faith

But was it the right way?

I think it looked chaotic and helpless to people

People from other religions advising to do different things

"Call her name back!"

"Put this amulet on her, it may help"

All these with good intentions

But I had no choice but to be fervent

And say we don't need all these but the power of God

Then the guards came

And I got afraid

If they were gonna do what they do cos they thought this was an exorcism

Then the dark forces would be backed up

And me being me

I wouldn't dare ask the guard to just stop

Thank God for wisdom and a brave brother

Who just made the guard 

Stop.

We prayed and prayed

Up to about under an hour

It stopped

And I was relieved

Glad that she was ok

But more happy cos we had the peace

Everyone slept well

Except people who didn't know our God

I look back at this

And I really do wonder

Why did God allow this

The way we prayed for her

The awkward positions

The many passerby's that were curious

The way things were handled

Was it the right way?

Shows all the more how much I need to be rooted in the word

And get under good leadership who can explain this kinda stuff

However so

I believe that this happened for a reason

And God can change what seems like utter disdain

Into something that could glorify Him

To change beauty for ashes

And to bring this generation back to Him

I stand amazed at how the young Christians there

Still had unshakable faith

Despite witnessing an event such as this

Their faith became stronger

And that is great cos we get to reach a whole new level

As we come out of an event such as these unshakable

A whole new level of spiritual maturity is reached

And we just get higher and higher

And stronger and stronger
When we pass the test

When our faith is tested.

Who we are...

Sons and daughters of the one true King.