A great holiday!

Our laughs are contagious! Truly a blessing to have such a friend.

Hope that you guys are having a great holiday preparing for Chinese New Year and all! Mine have so far been great! Already finished reading a book, entering my next, hope to finish 3 in this 3 weeks. Playing more of the guitar and the piano, learning new songs from my sister, trying to write some and the unsuccessful attempt of loosing weight. (Ironic, I know with CNY and all.) Spending as much time with my lovely family, scheduling time to meet all my friends in gatherings and reunions and trying to cut down on the TV and do more exercise. The best part is seeing my friends being happy as they encounter and experience God more and more! And all these through Facebook! God is awesome. Was a tad worried that I'll loose out on my quiet time with God and experiencing Him, but this round, I didn't fall short and it's great! My best break so far! Seeing friends going through spiritual heights really makes my day! Can't see how this holiday can get any better than that! But it totally is! Hope your holiday would be as fun,productive and fruitful as mine! Take care and God bless!!!

One picture that I can't stop liking, spot the smiles, the clothes and the shoes!

My dear friend, May in the middle is going through very wonderful happenings and I'm truly proud of her! Same as the guy with the huge smile up there in the first picture,Alex. Like his smile, his faith is contagious! Pure young ones with faith and passion who inspires me...

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!!

Blogs Defines

People blog about everything nowadays

They blog about food, fashion and fun

Places they've visit

Their dog, their cat or little white rabbit

While others use it to bring in the "ka-ching"!

Making money out of it

Putting advertisements on them

(as you can see I'm obviously not excluded :P)

Meshing creative minds and entrepreneur skills

To start businesses and sell stuff online

Some go on and on and on and on

About every tiny detail about their lives

Like what time they woke up 

Or what bus they took

Or how tight they wrapped their hands around someone's waist

As they soar away on a motorbike

There are so many things a blog reveals

They show the person you are

Or even the person you're not

(some creepy people love living double lives)

They tell of more than what people see on a daily basis

Blogs show. 

Blogs tell.

Blogs expose.

Blogs defines.

The way some people spray their header with foul language to look cool

Or how some start with real "straight-up-in-your-face" welcome phrases telling you

That if you don't like what you read, who cares (lol)

Cos its their right to write what they want and want what they write

Or how others put it as "adult content" or "not for public view"

It is true that we can gage how a person is through their blog
The way we use it to express ourselves
Share our hearts out
The safe avenue for us to leash out our emotions, fears, angers and doubts
The deepest, darkest secrets we hid inside

All without the fear of getting unwanted advice or naggings from others
But as a sounding board (or in this case a sounding box)
A therapeutic practice for some
To be who they really are
Without the judgmental point of views
Or negative stares

I though about this topic a long time ago actually
When I told me friend that to get more views on my blog I should commercialize it
And to do that I shall blog more on "everyday", "readable" issues
Rather than just talking about God and spiritual stuff all the time
It's been months now or even up to half a year
And right here penning my thoughts down
I doubt that would be a good idea

I can blog about food and events I go to
Which I really do sometimes
But my hearts desire is to see people being exposed to the things of God
His Grace, Mercy and Power
The series of very fortunate events He's unfolding in my life
He is a huge part of me
Actually He's everything to me
So how can I leave Him out of my blog
If what I blog about concerns my life?

And so like how many bloggers rant on about how life treats them
Or how unfair it is to be in this sad world
Or how they have nursed a broken hurt from a loved one
Get over a family member's death
Buried a pet kitten in their backyard
Thrive through the ups and downs of this roller coaster we call life
 I will continue to blog about my God.

So my dream of earning lots of cash
And becoming a famous blogger
Or getting thousands of hits per day
Can go out the window

But the real reason of why I blog can be cemented and substantiated
On the fact that that is truly why I blog from the beginning
Silver Lining
That subtle ray of sunlight
Coming out from behind a cloud after a thunderstorm or rainy day
That consoling aspect of a difficult situation
The gift of hope that our Father gives

So its that simple.
If I want to get to know more about a friend or pop star
I'll just read their blog
When I grow up I'll read my kids
For I want to know whats going on in their heads
And what happens behind the scenes
If my mom is so worried about my future partner
(which I think she is)
I'll just ask her to read his blog
(If he has one, that is)
Of course it's not that simple
Cos how many percent of a blog can you actually believe in?

But hey
When the emotions rise and situations concur
Many people race to their blogs to let it all out
Stopping themselves from a physical turmoil
They release themselves as they type it out
You can envision it right now
Some laughing as they remember a funny event
Some crying over a conflict or pain they encountered
Some writing down memories to seal them in time capsules
Some just penning down their hope and dreams for their future
And the list can be as long as it goes
All this with their hands on a keyboard
And eyes hooked onto the screen

As for me
I'll continue to blog the way I blog
Focusing on His thoughts and plans for me
I do it for self reflection
Also for therapy
My free space with no restrictions
There will  be ups
There will be downs
For I won't be real if they were all good
But hey, remember the silverlining?
I'll use it to communicate what I cant convey in words
And keep God in the centre of all of it for
Blog Defines....




So how bout yours? :)

Somewhere I belong

Sometimes we take for granted the beauty of where we live in.

Even as I sit hear eating my last lunch in the hostel's canteen
Somehow something inside of me starts forming
A feeling I can't put my finger on
Knowing that I won't be staying here for long


It's not the food I know
Even though it'll be the last time they're selling
Some say it's cos of food poisoning
But to me the food has never been that great


But how can it be
For going home I'm excited as could be
The mixed feelings entangled in me
Making it unclear for me to see


And then a thought comes in
Something straight from the heart of God
"This is where you belong now"
A place I am placed where God wants to save


How the "Big Bang theory"
Or how circumstances takes place
Making me cross paths with the people here
Amazes me more and more each day


Somehow I know that my few years here
Is what I can take even if it feels way more than that
Hostel and college carries countless of Divine memories
Defining and Amazing, changing my course of life


I don't know where the future will take me
Or who'll I marry
But deep down I'm sure off
The place which God have placed me


For it's right here and right now
A temporal staying which launches me into eternity
Destined for an indescribable destiny
I know that this "not-as-cool-as-other" hostels is truly
Somewhere I belong.....

With a beautiful surrounding and great friends, what more should we ask for?

A place where we can just be our funny-little-selves!

We love where we're at! Our beloved Hostel!!!!

Feeling the Untouchable

As I'm here thinking of You

I wish I can touch You

To just reach out my hand and grasp the fullness of You

To feel You on my skin

And know that You're here

Right before me

And when I try

All I touch is nothingness

Not even the air hold weight which I can withhold

I feel nothing in front of me

Just the road ahead, endless, mysterious

The feeling  of unknown right before me

I think of the times when I look at the sky

And instead of seeing millions of stars

I see a slight twinkle here and there

Not allowing the confusion of stars and satellites to haunt me

I just close my eyes and believe

That even though I can't see

Their existence still live

And then I do the unthinkable

Instead of my hands, I use my heart

Hoping that with everything in me

It will reach out to Yours

As my heart touches Your heart

And Yours touch mine

Somehow I know things beyond me will start happening

I begin to feel Your love sweep all around me

The way You take my breath away in an instant

Knowing that I'm everything but alone

As I feel the touch of You

Not physical but more real

As our hearts align

The Being of who You are incepts in my mind

As my heart beholds Your beauty

Worries and fears go away

The knowledge of how much You love me

Suddenly makes the biggest mistakes okay

Knowing that You're here right beside me

Living on the inside of me

I just to have to say again

"God, You take my breath away"

This is the beauty of our relationship

Which defies the definition of religion

You call I answer and the same goes around

Something not many people have just yet

But with Faith I believe that someday

The world will get

To know its more that just physical reality

But a spiritual truth

Besides, facts are the lowest form of truth

And You are the Truth

And that is why I have no doubt in 

FEELING THE UNTOUCHABLE

Humility

My Dearest Mommy

Yesterday was my mom's birthday

And I sincerely must say

That I am humbled by the fact 

That I was gifted with such a gem

She's worked hard and strong

Not letting the way of life define her

But allowing God's sole plan

To go before her

In my twenty years of life on earth

I have learned so much from her

Her tenacity and subtle steadiness

Making her a pillar of much worth

Her actions of grace speaks louder than words

Determination in getting things done

Especially concerning the things of God

Has taught me to live my life for Him

She's different in a way

Making sure we put God in front of everything

Protecting our Sabbaths

Concerned about our spirituality

She made me stay a year back before entering college

To make sure in faith I'm not shaken

And on the word I shall be rooted

Keeping my self in God truly grounded

And now my sister is doing the same

I hope she realizes that free time with mom

Is running out fast

As we enter college and the rest of our lives

My mom has taught me to persevere in prayer

For that's how she got me after 9 years of praying

That is like half my age!

How did she do that? 

Truly by His Grace

She speaks of inner strength in her wonderful being

To never ever compromise on what we believe in

She can be vocal at times

Standing up for the things of God

Allowing the fear of God to precede the fear of men

She once texted my sister and I

Struck by a sentence from a Christian magazine we both love

   'Holiness precedes power'
    "So true ya, what do you think?"

Caught us by random

Which received a questioning reply from my sis of

"You talking to me?" o.o LOL!

Works and toils throughout the night

Trying to make the best out of everything she can

Sometimes bringing negative attention

Questioning people

Doubting her capability

But she is never shaken

And this I shall learn from her

For she knows who she is in Christ

And prophecies given defends her outright

Putting back things to perspective making them align

My Dearest Mommy

Oh what would I do without you?

You have taught me in the things you say and don't

The way you walk so much of  your talk

Sometimes I think you need a break

I pray the Lord will continue to bless you

As you walk in His eternal destiny for you

For you have always been obedient

Although it was hard with two young daughters

I have learned so much from you

Although we may quarrel in small fights

Deep down I know we just come out more tight

The tears we shed together

The belly of laughter's released

The way you look forward to watching "7th Heaven"

And "Touched by an Angel"

How you make us sit down and make cookies together

Or how we share talks over meals or nothing

Catching up on lost time

Both knowing that we can never turn back time

But still holding on to whats is left to our rights of each other

I look forward to those times

And even distance can't separate us

As we talk for hours on our free line

Me filling you in on the unending happenings in college, life and church

And you telling me how work and everyone is doing back home

This mother-daughter thing we have here?

Is totally precious and priceless

Coming here and seeing the world

Now I understand that not a lot of people get to partake of this

Thank you Mommy

For being who you are

Just being yourself

And not allowing anyone to dictate who you are

Teaching me integrity and dignity

All with LOVE, FAITH and purity

Making sure I'm in the hands of God

And getting all excited with what He's doing in my life

Besides the greatest gift of life you gave me

The greatest gift was when you surrendered my life into the hands of God

Devoting me and Deb to our Father in Heaven

Mommy

You have taught me some priceless lessons

I can learn no where else but from you

I don't how can I ever repay you

But just to say thank you

Of course I'm gonna treat you!

Can't wait to see you!

And I thank our Dear Lord for you

I sure hope it's not too late to say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
 to you!!!!

My Mama and Me!

PS: If this day did not exist, there would be no you. And if there was no you, there would be no me. Therefore in this I'm truly grateful. I LOVE YOU!

Temporal Hits

10 days after a new year and I get hit
Not the way where good sense is knocked into you
Nor the way you see blur lines and stars over your head
But a hit straight into the heart
Forced to bear the heaviness that don't linger but stay

So many things are happening and escalating
And even without a chance to say "breathe"
You feel the full force of events at once released
Not really suffocating you, for they're all good
But I'm still an emotional being coping with the moods

Last night was just awesome
God as a wild fire
Intense, unpredictable and untamed
Throwing me off tangent (almost literally)
Yet giving us clear directions in proper ascending

And then an overflow of yesterday's outpouring
Into my bedtime and up to wake time
I don't know what to conclude of it
But I won't sing lies as the lyrics go
"Mold me, Refine me, Use me for Your plans"

Not prepared for the exam
Yet I went it not knowing what to expect
A whole question left me in wondering
What on earth was I thinking
It's not an 'A' now but a pass that I'm hoping

Never felt it this bad in my entire college life
It's a bit over a year and a half
Managed to maintain my CGPA (which surprises me)
All up til now
To still hold that rate, I don't know how

Thought I could suppress the pain I feel inside
Of unbelief, regret and disappointment
In no one else but myself
Why didn't I study harder
I am the one to blame

Then I try rethinking, reanalyzing and secretly hoping
That it is all a dream and that time could turn back
To when I still had the time to study hard
To cover all my notes, lectures and books
To be a good student and do what I do

But no point reliving what is undone
You can't turn back the hand of time
The hurt you keep inflicting upon yourself
Does no good but only harm
Why the self-deprecation, when all it does is kills...

As I let out my discontent by going to the movies
Hoping that seeing "Jack & Jill" could make me laugh
To laugh my worries away at a funny comedy
Even behind those laughter, deep down I know
That the pain inside, still resides

Then I realize that this is only a temporal hit
Something the devil does cos he exist
Seeing how I'm entering the destiny God has for me
Making him jealous with full of deceit
Trying to get me, as so it may seem

Because so many things have been happening
The evil one can manipulate my mind
Making me think that I have messed up priorities
Nurturing a start of a chain of negative thoughts
Belittling me, hoping me weak

That I would blame it on God
Blame it on circumstances
Blame it on myself
Which he almost succeeded
But now I know his underlying motives

I caught myself thinking
That there's no need of self-torturing
Cos then to the devil I'm aiding
And of that I shall have no part in
For I'm a daughter of the King

This is only a temporal hit
One that makes me stand up right after I fall
For God's got my back
And He'll catch me when I fall
Just like how He did so quickly today

Let out my emotions
But not with anger and frustration to Him
Just soft words telling
And tears that were flowing
For I have passed the phase of questioning

And I feel Him and hear Him
Through the wind that blows at the right times
And the skies that paints of His creativity
Hearing Him tell me everything is okay
And that there are more to life then just grades

And then I have dinner with 2 friends for the first time
And I see open doors and hearts availed to God
From a few minutes it turn into hours
And deep down I know God is working again
In me and through me

Prayer group went very very well too
Not having the time to prepare cos of my last minute talk
I already knew what God wanted shared
To be bold and reverent in His presence
Not treating Grace lightly yet humbled and in awe

And right now I stand amaze at the swift hand of God
Which moves so quick not allowing me to soak in my despair
That when I get hit, with a proper reflex
I can come out of it just as quickly
And go on to do the things which God has entrusted in me

Temporal hits may come more frequently these days
But in this I shall not be afraid
For His rod and His staff
They shall comfort me
And He will never ever leave my side

The more hits that come
The more I shall get back stronger and tougher
Knowing that He who is in me
Is greater than he who is of the world
And with that and my identity intact
I know I'll be fine

So come and get me with your sly tricks
For you are actually nothing but a toothless lion
Trying to get me but with no avail
Cos my Daddy King, He always prevails
And in Him I'll entrust the safety of my life

Temporal hits
Are nothing but temporal
So right now I'll focus on what is eternal
That's souls and compassion for the lost
Knowing that Jesus is the answer for the world today
I'd rather be occupied by Kingdom issues
Than small petty stuff like crying over bad grades (lol!)
Cos I know who I am in Christ
And that truth and love is eternal

And so when you get hit down too
Whether its like a tow-truck kinda hit
Or a slight knock of the wind
Know that God's right there to catch you when you fall
He's got your back no matter what you think
Anyway, though the pain is there
It can be only temporal
If you choose it to be
Remember, it's all in the mind
A battlefield that's so define
It may lead you to utter defeat
Or a glorious, triumphant victory

Look to Him
And learn from Him
The way He attacks situations
With the slight of His hand
With not much effort needed
He'll take that hit for you
The pain will subside
But His love imprinted will remain
For he took so many hits, punches and kicks
All from the source of bitterness
So that we don't have to endure them no more

After all
What is God's all consuming fire and power
Love so amazing we could never define
Compared to this temporal hit
Whose power is nothing but temporal
Our God is greater
So don't mind when the temporal hits come....

See, temporal hits don't stay long.