Doing my Devotion

Doing my devotion

Not just to go through the motion

But to read that portion of scripture

And to not go by emotion

But to know that God is speaking

.........

Its almost time and for class I don't wanna be late

Flipped my bible open

And the words just spoke into my situation

Questions I was asking

Of what would I do or say

God gave me the answer

=)

..........

Doing my devotion

What have I to loose?

Nothing actually cos I'm investing into eternity

Even though I may feel dry sometimes

I'll stay faithful because I know deep down

It is worth every bit of my effort

Peace that surpasses all understanding

It's amazing how prayer can change the way you feel instantly. You have so many things over your head yet you feel the joy, making you wonder what just happened. How in the instant of an "Amen" all your worries and doubts just fade away. Yes, chores will be chores and assignments and tests are still responsibilities, but the worrying and "waking up from your sleep because it was a nightmare" scare won't help whatsoever but just get our emotions haywire. 


Philippians 4:7 -  And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.


Yup! It would =) the peace of God would surely help through it all. Guarding my heart and my mind. No point allowing a heavy feeling to fill my heart or negative thoughts to enter my mind. 

To hold the hands of my dear friend

And to pray together hoping it will cast out fear

Of being a college student

And the many responsibilities

Making life so not easy

We just said a prayer for each other

And hope that the feelings would not be a bother

Simple prayers of 2 girls

But God heard and He worked

And there was a change in the atmosphere

Peace filled us and it was incredible

Like "life is truly worth living"

And we need to live it for God

For we were called

To be so much more...

Shout out to my sis Deb! Listening to Delirious! Thanks so much for downloading soo many good songs that helps me through the times.... love you!

Sing your song

We tend to compare ourselves with others these days

Never feeling confident about ourselves

We base who we are on what is seen on TV, internet and magazines

Having the need to be a certain weight or height

To truly feel a self-fulfillment

Trying to do things that are beyond us

To actually find our self-worth

Playing the same game no one never played

-If only I was smarter, taller or slimmer

More confident, prettier or musically inclined

The list goes on

And no one is exempted

We compare ourselves with celebrities, siblings and friends

How can he be so funny?

Why can she sing so well?

I wish I had those brains

Are people that good looking even for real?

Focusing on all the wrong  places

Instead of what matters most

THE HEART.

We were all wonderfully and fearfully made

Unique in our own different ways

Yet we tend to turn a blind eye on the beauty in ourselves

Painting a hideous picture of what we see in the mirror
Thinking that we could be better

My mom just told me

About singing my own song

Never allowing me to compare myself with others

For I have my journey crafted out for me

No point walking in the path of someone else

God gave me a song

And its my duty to sing it

To sing it well with all my heart

And to never doubt who I am

And all that's within me

No point comparing songs with anyone else

For God's got it written especially for me

And He wrote one especially for you

Sing it well with all your might

And know that the Author of your song is always right

We may get out of key or even out of tune at some point

But who cares because this is your song

And without failures how would we ever learn?

Besides you're singing for Him and no one else

And to Him you'll sound ever so beautiful

Without tuning ourselves to the One who has perfect pitch

We will totally get it all wrong

But once we let go and not try to hard

As the breathing steadies and rhythm takes place

Take courage and sing that one written song specifically for you

He hears you sing

And He'll sing it with you

After all He wrote the song

According to who you truly are

His child

So the next time you start whining and thinking

Why others have it all together

Way better than you

The self esteem and self confidence all gone

And you forget the purpose you live for

Remember that you have your own song to sing

A song so beautiful it'll take His breath away

They have their song to sing too so just leave it to them

And know that you can do it, so just

Sing your song!

You are not alone

So many things have been happening lately

Caught up in my own emotions

Seeing others get caught up in theirs

Making me feel all the more worry

It's not easy neither is it good

To be going through the same vicious cycle

Over and over again

With no form of breakthrough or escape

The feeling? - HOPELESSNESS.

We feel we're not good enough

Or even good for nothing

Doubting our true value

Priceless in God's eyes

We ask why

We ask how

Why does this happen to me?

How did it even start?

Whether you feel depressed

Or all alone

Sick of yourself

Needing someone to hold

Know that you're not alone

For there are so many people going through the same thing

The same emotions and the same feelings

Having the same wants and needs

Do not let your present sadness hinder you from future happiness

For as we fight the feelings that we feel

And push through the heartache and depression

We will be able to see the light or that silver lining

And that eternal happiness?

Nothing comes near

Talk to God

Casting all your care upon him;

for he careth for you

(1 Peter 5:7)

There is a light at the end of this tunnel

And as you crawl through what seems to be of no escape

Know that you're not alone for there are people around you

And most of all there's a God who adores you

That tunnel may give you scraped knees

And a backache

The feeling of being lost

In a scary maze

You may not see the light just yet

But in due time, in His time

You'll find your way out

And look back onto what seems like a priceless journey

It is a part of life

Don't shorten it "just because"

Live your life to the fullest

By not being the finisher of it

God.loves.you

you.are.not.alone

Happy Mother's Day

Going to church and seeing the children sing for their moms

How the youth appreciated their mothers effort

How the husbands prayed for their wives

And how each mom teared up as their children gave them hugs

Really made me miss my mom all the more

My mom is really super woman

Juggling work, home and ministry

Training my maid to be a good cook

And always keeping the best interest of me and my sis

As the pastor today shared about the great things and attributes about his mom

I can't stop but think of how my mom have helped me through my darkest moments

She never gave up on me when even I gave up on myself

And always hold me closed letting me know that God is still in control

My thoughts brought me down memory lane and I started to remember of

The time she celebrated with me 

When I finished my Grade 8 ballet with an unexpected distinction

The shuffling to ballet classes for about 10 years paid off

Taking time off work just to make sure I attend my lessons

So many times I cried and wanted to give up

She never allowed it

And now I am grateful

The time when she would lie with me on my bed

When I was going through depression

The feeling of not being able to sleep

And the frustration of seeing a glimpse of that 5 am sunlight

Warning me that I wasted a whole night and the new day would feel hazy

Yet she still laid there beside me

Loosing her sleep ever so willingly

The time when she cried with me

When I lost half my life's savings to a friend I thought was "dear"

We aren't very rich and I needed that money for college

She was more heartbroken than I for she said it was my carefully saved "ang pau's"

Yet she asked me to forgive

And told me with God money should not be an issue

Or zooming way back into time when I wasn't even born yet

When she prayed and prayed for a dear little baby

Someone she can call her own little child

Her prayers paid off and after 9 years

I was born

Or how she could build up the courage to walk away from "bondage"

During the phase my sister was born

To leave a life of security and companionship

With a newborn in hand and our futures at stake

It wasn't easy and 'till now 

I don't know how she did it

Or how she was bold enough to bring my sis and I all the way to Alor Star

A mother with 2 young daughters

A new home, a new job and new schools

It wasn't easy and there was a lot of quarreling

As I was entering my teens

But then is when we really bloom

Where my sister learnt the bass

And I learnt to worship lead

A whole book can be written on that 5 special years

And my mom plays the part as 2nd lead

Allowing God to take the main role

I can go on and on and on

But blogpost are not pages so we have to stop somewhere

My mom is very special

Hard to describe because she doesn't like attention

Even going back during the sem break

One of her close friends told me and deb that we should help her out

Cos all she does is work and work ever so selflessly

And she just seem to be living for the sake of me, deb and God

She's weird in a way 

Because when other mom's ask their children to do well in studies

She always asks us to do better in ministries

(that's why though the limited finance, 

she never stingy on paying for lessons because she believes its a tool for serving God)

And every time I call home telling that I may not be able to maintain my CGPA

As long as I don't cut out my time with God everything would be ok

She's more excited than me for our prayer group

And I tell her every single detail that happens there

Because I do need the covering

And the many prayers she gives me

She tells me to never give up

And make sure I'm always in the centre of God's will

And told me that prayer group is there not because of me but because of God

And to know that God wants it there even more than any of us

I truly thank God for her

For no other mom could fit me better than her

She's the greatest mom in the world

Because she's my mom and God gave her to me

God gave me a gift

Which gave me the gift of life

For without her I wouldn't be drafting this post

And being in awe of how God crafts things out

Mom,

If you're reading this I hope you will be blessed

To know how much you've blessed me

And to know how much you mean to me

Besides God you are my world

And as I breathe from day to day

I'll never forget this gift of life you gave me

Never giving up on me and deb

And always holding onto the promises of God

You've been through storms and crashing seas

Yet you rise above them with what seems like ease

Never letting words or actions hurled at you

Hinder your faith and relationship with God

Because of you

I am who I am today

And my faith is where it is today

Because I model after the greatest role model ever

On behalf on deb and myself

I would like to thank you

For putting up with our tempers and tantrums

And for making sure we're deeply rooted in God's word

What did we do to deserve a mom like you

Only God knows and I'm truly grateful

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, MOM

And I love you!

Glory

I've been waiting my whole life

For this one special moment I got

Just to be with you

GLORY

You're my Shooting Star

Followed the advice of a friend to sit down and have quiet time on my own. To ponder and reflect on all the happenings of the past week. Things were over my head and out of hand and I needed the support. Glad that I decided against the urge to go out with friends and to just sleep in until 1 o'clock. Caught up with a friend by phone and shared everything. Like always, she gave me good advice.


As I sat by the curb on a quiet spot to talk to God and thank Him for everything. Gazing into the skies, I also pondered and reflected on the indescribable things that happened this past week. God definitely allowed it but now I want to know whether He was happy with how I responded. The answer came. " You are my shooting star, but everlasting". God was proud of me and everything fell into place. I love who I am not because of me but because I belong to Him. A child of God. Because He is the biggest part of my life, I slowly begin to realize that everything whether good or bad happens for a reason and God allows it. We may not or never  understand but that's the beauty of it. I can't seem to fathom shooting stars, and the feeling of excitement and exhilaration that comes after it. 


So what causes a shooting star? It happens when tiny bits of dust and rocks called meteoroids falls into the earth's atmosphere and  burns up. Too me, shooting stars depicts who we are in Christ. In our darkest moments we fall down, and then is when God appears and shines His light in us and through us. Dust and rocks are "happenings" beyond us we can't seem to understand. Yet when we allow God to interfere and use us, we burn and brighten up because of His work in us and His cleansing fire, turning into these beautiful streaks of light which people wait hours upon to see a glimpse of them. The difference however is that though real meteoroids or shooting stars are short-lived only happening only about 1 to 2 seconds, we're not. And if we get things done right, we'll have all of eternity to spend with our Father. 


I want to be God's shooting star and continue to shine for Him wherever I go. That when people see me they will stand amaze at the Creator. Because being His shooting star, I go against science and don't just shine for the moment but into everlasting. And my response to God when He told me this? "God, You are my shooting star, only everlasting" I love the creator of shooting stars soo much!!!