Sometimes....

Sometimes I don't know what to do,
All I know is to look up to You.

Sometimes I just can't seem to understand,
But You're always there helping me make a stand.

Sometimes things can go all weary,
But You'll turn up making things easy.

Sometimes stuff aren't what they seem,
But in everything You'll always be seen.

Sometimes we cant control what life throws at us,
But you're always there to catch us from falling.

Sometimes life may seem like 1 big blur,
But behind that You're the one whose near.

Sometimes life can feel like such a mess,
But it always turns out a beautiful phase.

Against the flow I Go

Was talking to my mom just now, cos I felt a bit guilty of maybe not acting like myself in front of people. How do I put this, it kinda showed me how I will react if I go elsewhere for further studies. The ways I will act according to the different environments I'm in. I think I sway pretty easily, but I'm praying that I wont.

Remembering words of Ps. Kenneth Chin from the Acts church, in a REVO camp, he challenged the youth to go against the flow. Like there's this big wave coming your way, the wave of peer pressure, drugs, swearing, lies and sex. (sounds harsh, but that's reality) Or even the way you carry yourself, the way you talk, the little decisions you make. Are they Godly decisions or are they based on impulse. Back to the topic, Oh No!!! The flow's coming our way! but we have to be strong and go against the flow, no matter how hard it is. We'll just bend our knees deeper, strive harder, push stronger and fight. It isn't one bit easy but God is with us. Plus we have our full armour on!

But what really struck me were the wise words of wisdom from my mom in this mornings conversation. She said," wherever you go you have to be so full of God's light that darkness cant touch you" for there's just isn't any space for it! my heart and soul has to be so filled with His presence that there is no more room for unwanted stuff, and I think thats so cool! Living life to the fullest God's way...against the flow of the world.

I'm writing this so that I can account to myself. Whenever I feel things of the world are sinking into me, I'll remember what I wrote and walk my talk!

Against the flow I go
It isn't easy I know
Here it comes my way!
God, help me push not sway

Against the flow I go
The flow the world follows
sex, lies and drugs
like creepy slimy bugs

Against the flow I go
curled up fist
bended knees
The armor of God on me

Against the flow I go
I hope I'm not alone
Friends with the same faith
We go through the same pains

Against the flow I go
Letting His light shine
So full of it in me
No room for dirty darkness

Against the flow I go
with God's mighty army
We're all set for battle
Ready to claim our victory

Against the flow we go
Get set, ready, let's go!
Win our friends for Jesus
For with that no one loses

Against the flow I go
No looking back
Just straight ahead
For I know my Dad is waiting
right there on the other end
As I run my race and fight my battle
there He'll be cheering me on
He'll also be by my side
following my pace
although a king
He's full of love and compassion
yet He fights my battle with Power
So it makes it easier
why 2 of us are together
That way It'll be not so hard
as I
Go Against The Flow!!!

Never box Him up

Sometimes we tend to box God up. He is almighty God, creator of the universe but sometimes we still see Him smaller than the famous, like the Queen of England or Michael Jackson. Just watched "The Oprah Show" last night & a crew went into her 484,000 square ft palace to get a glimpse of her life, and oh how majestic it was. Or another example like looking at Michael Jackson perform, its just amazing with the talents he has! But our God created them, and is way bigger and better than them, yet He's not getting the credit He deserves. So thought I should put my thoughts on paper:

Oh how we serve a majestic God
Yet He isn't getting the credit he ought
Stars like Miley
Getting more highly

Fans scream and shout
At concerts and matches
While we're here having every reason to shout
About our God, oh He'll be so proud!

But we still am quite
while fans rock the stadiums
Are we ashamed or afraid?
Of the One who was slain?

People cant have a normal conversation
with even the Queen of England
Yet we have all day with our King
But why aren't we speaking?

Michael Jackson was a legend
But it stops there, that's right, The End
For even now the King of Pop
Has to bow down to the King of Kings

So lets not box God up
For He's there high up
Looking down on creation
Us, the very people He created

Expecting us to be undignified for Him
That we may scream & shout at the top of our lungs
For all the goodness He has done
Sadness in Him there's none

Lets thank Him with all our hearts
For not just being a King
But also a daddy and friend.
Which is no reason why we should box Him up!

Things aren't exactly what they seem

Just came home from church, feeling really tired cos I'll have to go to youth again in like 15 minutes! But feel I really have to do this...

Do you have loved ones close to you, leaning onto you a bit way too much?
Like your their lifeline, the number to call on those yellow pages in times of trouble, and I mean only when they're in trouble.
When they need money, or a ride cos their car broke down.
Just got out of a similar situation.
Couldn't stand it anymore, tried to control the tears.
And before I knew it, with Divine timing, the song "Arms open wide" from the latest Hillsong United album, played in the car.

Chorus:
Oh here I stand
Arms open wide
Oh I am Yours
And You are mine

Take my moments and my days
Let each breath that I take
Be ever only for You oh God

Oh here I stand
Arms open wide
Oh I am Yours
And You are mine

My whole life is Yours
I give it all
Surrendered to Your name
And forever I will pray
Have Your way
Have Your way

2 tears escaped from my eyes, don't exactly know what I felt, but didn't quite like it.
Then I looked out into the skies and saw just this 1 shining star, that didn't exactly looked like one. Asked God about it, got the feeling it was really a star but still doubtful. Then God gave me this answer,

"Things are not always what it seem, sometimes they happen for a reason, but just leave everything into My hands, your fears, doubts, friends and also the loved ones who bother you, and see Me work, just like the star, to you it doesn't seem like one, cos of the way it blinks, or the shape of it, you even thought it was a satellite. But sometimes things really aren't what they seem."

So I left it there, and then moments later got a call, saying that money isn't needed anymore cos some money deposited in a vcd rental shop got back to the person who needed it. And its the exact amount cos no vcd was rented in a long time and a sum had to be deducted. Its CRAZY!!! God really is working, so told him that its a miracle, even though he doesn't believe in God and may not like to hear that, but couldn't care less cos God really was working!

So the next time you see a star, not sure whether its a plane, a satellite or even Superman? Just know that God knows our hearts deeply, more than we know ourselves. Just give yourself to Him and I mean your whole self! Watch Him work His awesome ways, even better than catching a shooting star which is just short-lived. His mercies are new every morning, and so are His blessings! So dont jump to conclusions that Jesus isn't there or not watching over you cos....

THINGS AREN'T EXACTLY WHAT THEY SEEM!!!

What true love is...

Reading the "Redemption" series by Karen Kingsbury. Just wanted to pen down what i thought was so true about how love should be in this time and age. This part is where Ashley helps Alzheimer's patients in a nursing home. She helps this old lady named Irvel, who lives in the past and keeps thinking of her husband Hank, even though he's dead. Because of her disease she doesnt know that everyday is the same repitition for her, going through the same motions always expecting Hank to come back from fishing with the boys. Here, Ashley's tries to help her and the other patients, by getting as much facts and observations from close friends and family. Facts about Irvel and Hank goes like these:

• Irvel and Hank were like 2 hands on the same person. The bond between them was such that you simply knew they were connected.
• Hank & Irvel's love was rare even in their day. They were a walking definition of how marriage is supposed to be.
• Everyone envied that special something Irvel and Hank shared. When 1 breathed in, the other drew life.
• Most everyone i knew grieved for Irvel the day Hank dies. When his heart quit, most of us were surprise hers kept beating. They were that close.
  

"The Slave Princess"

I don't know where to start! But this past week I have been dancing non-stop! and I love it! 10 to 10 in a day is no joke, but an awesome experience. Met so many people who live life through dance!
They kinda spread that onto me now...

The dancers and cast involve in this "The Slave Princess" performance are just so talented! Some are in their fifties and still dancing.. wish I could be like that. Even met 2 of the cast from "Drunk before Dawn" which was really cool. They are sooo into the performing arts. Really an honor to work with all these talented people!

This production was to raise money for Chung Hwa KK and a few other organisations.. hitz.fm has been advertising for us everyday for the past month. And this past week the dancers were featured in the paper. In yesterdays show, they brought disabled kids from one of the homes and it was just so touching to see them watching throughout the show!They loved it! not sure how the turn up is gonna be in tonights show. *fingers crossed* hope enough money will be raised.

Cant wait for tonight! Have to go get ready soon! And the best part is, the after party is at ''atmosphere"!!!! the revolving restaurant. some of us are more excited bout that then even the show itself. the organizors are really feeding us like crazy!! but then again, we do need the energy.

I'm so into dancing right now!

A strong little girl I know

A strong little girl I know
has pain that didn't show
never once I saw her cry
wasn't someone who was shy

She had this beautiful smile
though her journey a thousand miles
eyes that shine oh so bright
like the stars in a starry night

Plagued with diseases
that are foreign on our lips
let alone the poor girl's own lips
but oh how she graced them with ease

Won't forget the sound of her laugh
watching "Ice Age 3" sitting right beside her
the look in her eyes in that dark cinema
amused and joyful is part of her charisma

Told us she did talk to God
although some may see it odd
for conversations with God, her mom didnt know
for she only went straight to God

My friend saw a tear
only seen when you're near
she was letting God in
telling him secrets only for His ears

That tear I believe is kept preciously
in a corner of heaven above the clouds
put in a bottle with a red bow tied
her name written on it, close to God's heart

I believe she's doing the right thing
letting go and letting God
hopefully its official
that God's inside, not superficial

Her name starts with an "A"
for "A" as in Audrey
she deserves a million more A's
for walking victoriously through life's long journey

Her walk isn't over
yes she's still here
I believe she will stay strong
for she's tough and can hold on for long

I pray that God will guard her heart
especially when situations are hard
always there like the stars at night
may not see them, but they're always there

Audrey, know that I'll say a prayer
for Him to cast out your fear
and in the many more prayers
that you may know He's near

Your life's like a storybook
filled with a plot- the beginning and end
there will be happiness, trials, joy and pain
but with a happy ending, if you keep Him near

You'll be a blessing to many
for you're already a blessing to me
just live your life to the fullest
never neglecting God in your wildest

You have taught me so much
more than I can munch
I'll never forget you
thank you so much

Be strong, stay happy
never erasing that smile on your face
but most importantly
stay close to Jesus

For He knows you through & through
more than you can imagine
even more than you know yourself
that's how great He is

Thank Him for your family
they are so great & loving
I give them my blessings
and I believe God will give them His

I could write on and on
but I'll have to stop somewhere
so might as well stop here
but there's so much more to hear

Just keep trusting Him
hope you wont forget me
and remember 'cancer' is not in your vocabulary
neither will it be in the future

Please know that I love you
And that our Father above loves you more
lessons from the life
of a strong little girl I know!