How much I hate flying

Flying back home was a crazy-irritating-restless  struggle this time. Maybe it was because I was stuck between 2 guys. Maybe it was because I didn't get the window seat. Maybe it was because I hated myself cos I was reminded of how petite and short I was when I lugged my hand luggage into the overhead compartment with all the strength I can muster- very embarrassing. Or maybe it was cos no one offered to help and the air steward blocked by a few people could only stare and watch me struggle making embarrassment turn into utter defeat. I have always hated flying but never knew HOW MUCH I hated it til this last trip. The agitating feeling of confinement, with not much leg space and arm rest so tiny it has to be shared plus you don wanna wake the guy sitting next to you with just an accidental jerk of the arm. (makes reading, sleeping, thinking or doing whatever so much harder.) I was reminded that we can actually pray for the seats that we're gonna be placed in which I hope I was able to witness to anyone but to my disgrace, it was 2 guys on a fast and they seemed like they'd rather sleep then strike a conversation. Every minute passed by gruelingly, I wished that I could just land already! Even talking to God was hard.

Anyways, the upside was seeing 2 kids, really tiny toddlers find amusement in flying. They were so tiny I wouldn't be surprise if it was their first time. They were soo cute! Got my mind of flying for a little. And then they're parents made them sit down and I couldn't see their tiny little heads anymore. Got back to counting down every minute. When islands and land started to form, I was so jealous of the guy on my left cos I wanted to see! I would usually be taking pictures and the clicking sound of the person's camera phone in front of me wasn't helping at all. Tried so hard to stare but not stare, to focus on the beauty of God's creation even if it was only the plain blue sky with spots of white on it. But the guy caught me staring and I pretended to be really buried in the book I was reading. "AARRRGGGGHHH!" my head screamed. Went back to checking what time it was. Well at least the destination was very encouraging. So I just focused on the things I'll do in church, the workshop and kids seminar I'll be attending, time spent with friends and family, and other more productive stuff. We were landing and I had to push upright my sit again and it flipped back so fast and hard I hit my head. Wondered whether the guy beside me saw, but didn't wanna look at him but I think he did. = =''. What a day. Finally landed. "Now how am I going to get my bag down without going through the same struggle again" I thought to myself. Anyways, managed to get it down with the help of no one. (jokingly whining tone* where are all the nice people these days?) I would like to believe they were there,just not in my range of sight, helping others with their luggage. If I were tall enough, I would!

Really missed this

Pictures sometimes never justify what we can see with our own eyes.

Never take for granted when you have a friend flying by your side.

My favorite "sky-high" past time.

The Land Below The Wind!!!

I know they say "its not the destination but the journey" that counts. But in this case, if there is any possible way of shortening or just cutting out the whole journey (if I don't get a windows seat) I'd rather teleport my way there. The destination means so much more to me than the journey but because it means so much, I'll just have to put up with going through the journey, and now I'm just rambling....ignore me. lol!

When you have nothing better do, anything and everything becomes your models.

Happy sem-break, college mates!

Nail Polish!

Amanda's set! Bubbly colors!

My colors! Classic (as what Amanda calls it)

RM 12 for 3!!!
Woohoo!
Need to get some more before promotions over!

Not sure why I'm suddenly addicted to nail polish and acoustic music these days
Maybe it was inside me all along
Never dared to face these fettish
But now I find no reason to be ashamed of them

Loving Life!!!
(and thanking God for everything that comes with it)

Making My Day

My mom and I have this special "something" not a lot of mother-daughter relationships have. Its a norm to be talking on the phone with her for 1 to 2 hours. Every time I have news, whether good or bad, mind-boggling decisions or spiritual doctrine I can't figure, she would be the first one on my mind I wanna share them with. I am humbled that God has blessed me with a mom like that. 

Another hour has passed

Wow, did we actually talk that long

But for what its worth

It is worth every bit of it

I tell her the exciting things in my new church

My skepticism erased by the assurance of her faith

That I'm in the right church at the right time

We both wonder why I wasted a year

But she confirms that it's all in God's plan

Because 1 year of hopping, searching and looking

Will just bring more evidence and confirmation

To the place I'm attending right now 

She tells me the new things God's doing in our home church

I stand amaze at His wonders

She's gonna be a great vessel

Strongly used by God

Sometimes I feel sad and cheated 

That my family is doing "everything" and all things

Because our church is fairly small

In every ministry, you name it

I ask her whether its heavy

(especially with me gone, but then I'm reminded no ones indispensable)

She says its not

So I believe she's doing it right for God

For she's so far not burnt out

We both discussed about my sister's future

What she is doing

And where she will study

(proud of her btw, fasting 12 hours a day, seeking God's will)

My mom said that sometimes she wonder

As she sees my sis and I struggle

In areas like finance for our studies

Unlike others who can study whatever they want

Wherever they want

My sis and I have to think through thoroughly

Cos funds are just not on our side

But when she sees my sister fasting from 7 to 7 everyday

She thanks God for the situation we're placed in

That this kinda stuff forces us to seek God out

And ask for His guidance and provision

And naturally we're building on character in godly stature

And she has to worry no more

For she would rather me and my sis

Be built upon the will of God 

Then be spoiled and spoon-fed

That as we go through what seems like "hardship"

We're forced to be attuned to God

And seek His will for our lives

Cos we God ALL things are possible

And just trust that His plans for us are always GOOD

We ended our conversation praying for each other

I cherish the moments we do

And she said every time I call her I make her day

And that goes the other way round too

Cos every time I talk to her I feel lifted

Thanks mom

For Making My Day

<3

Confirmation of our Creator

* Thanks to Ee Rick for teaching me how to use the snipping tool! I'm having so much fun with it! lol =D

He is SO close

Been waking up earlier and earlier each day

Don't know why, don't know how

Is it the stress of exams?

God wanting me to pray?

It's just weird. 

Cos I'm a sleeper.

Never had the discipline of waking up by myself

Throughout the whole of my high school

From waking up at 8 to 6

And now 4.30 in the morning

What's going on with me?

Anyways, whether its a wake-up call from God or not

I can't go back to sleep

So the past few days have been filled with

Early morning walks with the Lord <3

Today was a but different

Since its a weekend and most hostelians were back home

I could pray in tounges

Strong tounges out loud

The feeling was awesome

Prayed for a few people

Situations and circumstances

When there were no more words

Tongues =)

Saw my favorite guard and went over to chat with him

It was 6 in the morning

What was I thinking?

Just felt that he was so close to the Kingdom of God

He told me about his life, his worries

His wife, his family

And that he's coming to the end of his life

And would be going home soon

IF ONLY HE KNEW MY GOD

Lesson unexpected-

He told me to treasure my mom

She's the only one on earth

Not someone I can buy from the grocery store

That when I get married one day

To give my husband another 100% of my love

And not divide it among both

That way my mom still receives the same 100% she always had

Unlike him who kinda forgot about his mom

Because he shared his love between his mom and wife

So his mom only received 50% of his love in that time

And now he regrets it

What a cute doctrine,ay?

He also said that after meeting me

I've put some ideas in his head

And got him thinking

"What is life?"

He's decided to resign end of this year

Because he'd rather have a 9 to 5 job

To be able to sleep with his wife and kids at night

And not torture himself with a job which needs him awake

When everyone's dreaming

Not sure whether that's a good idea

Cos it means lesser time for me to share God with Him

And to let him know life isn't about worries and doubts

But about Jesus and the peace and happiness He can give

Something wonderful which he said too

That even the birds don't have to worry bout what they'll eat

Yet we humans strive for provision and food

Rings a bell?

"Look at the birds of the air; 

they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, 

and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. 

Are you not much more valuable than they?"

-Matt 6:26-

Not sure whether he read that in the Koran or something

But I believe its not by coincidence

I wanted to say how valuable he is

But my reasoning came in the way and I just didn't know what to say

Hopefully I can meet him later as I go to church

And give him the answer straight out of the bible

Which he quoted from without finishing the sentence 

That yes, birds have nothing to worry about

Because our Heavenly Father cares for them

But He cares for us more!!!

I pray for him everyday I pass the guard house

That God may open his heart and enlighten him

That he may realize that God does not give suffering

But peace, joy and love

All that this guard needs right now

I'm glad that I've put ideas and thoughts into his mind

Without really realizing

Should be the power of God moving

Don't underestimate any single conversation

It just might be an open door we can't see

He also asked a very good question

Since he's so intrigued by the freedom and care-free life birds have

He wondered where do they die

Good question

Where do birds die?

We see them flying everywhere
But  unlike dead dogs, cats and mice lying on the grounds

We don't see birds falling to their deaths....

Anyways

I pray before he leaves this place

I'll have the guts to not just stop at sharing Jesus with him

But to ask whether he wants Jesus in

Because through the many dialogues over the weeks

I find that

He is just so close.....

Asia Ablaze

Going to Asia Ablaze put my perspectives in place. I'm so glad I went! Thanks to Bong Yang for the constant persuading, my mom for the great encouragement and Amanda for accompanying me, I don't regret a single bit! (Even though it means skipping classes :P) It's been awhile since I felt the power of God and the move of the Holy Spirit and after experiencing it again, I realized just how much I missed it. (no wonder the dry season, most churches find it weird!) But I love the Holy Spirit and it's manifestation. So many things happened in these 3 days with Dr. Newberry and Pastor. Rodney Howard-Browne and his wife Adonica. These are really anointed people of God and I salute them, despite the backfiring and mouth-slandering towards them from people who spread disunity. I never had holy laughter this "bad" until the 2 people at my sides holding my hands had to bear with my jumping, shaking and hysterical laughs! Though it seemed undignified, I enjoyed every moment of it.

So the tongue issue that has always been a controversy (but new to me until I came to KL being exposed to so many denominations) was confronted. Being toss in the wind for so long and sitting on the fence, I have come to a decision that we NEED tongues! Think about it, imagine revival......without tongues. How can we see revival without the manifestation of the Holy Spirit in the form of Holy laughter, tounges, shaking, Glory Encounters and being drunk in the Spirit? If we continue to box up the move of the Holy Spirit, He may just pass us by and move on and I just don't want that to happen, especially for where I am right now- TAR college. I respect those who think that tongues are not needed and are more word based. But imagine a "word-based" revival. No lifting hands, no moving, nothing. "Revival's here! Everyone take out your bibles." Loving God is an inward expression that needs to be expressed. I would agree to disagree on this matter, as long as the fundamental is loving God. Anyways, we can have unity in diversity, and we need unity and not uniformity, but what if "this" uniformity means bringing heaven down? Don't we all want that?  I'm sorry for the tone here, I apologize for that but sometimes it can be so frustrating when people start questioning and reasoning or even ridiculing God's anointed like Ps. Rodney. However, I don't apologize on my conviction because I have experienced God and I won't compromise. I would still agree to disagree but I won't stay neutral cos that to me, just seems lukewarm. Cheers!

My new family, World Harvest Church =)

Credits to Jetaime for this photo! Thank you! 

Proud of you

It's been 6 years since we've met

And now looking at you

I see a whole new person

The girl I knew had her head down

The girl I see now knows no boundaries

Coming out from where you come from

A home where wounded kids are brought

You came out of it stronger and tougher

I guess that house did good to you

And I hope lessons learnt there would never be forgotten

You have your freedom now

Use it wisely

But seriously speaking

I'm truly proud of you

Taking such a risk to come to KL

To study and be self-dependent

Not succumbing to the norm

Of how usual teenagers come out of places like that

Wanting to seek freedom

All in the name of rebellion

You found your way around KL

Through strangers that were nice

Thank God for taking care of you

And til now you're still safe and sound

I stand amaze at who you are

And what you've become

Confident, beautiful

And so independent

Not allowing the way of life or your hard environment

Stop you from reaching your dreams

You have a good job

A good boyfriend

And a good education now

Never cease thanking the Lord for them

Braces that even I can't afford

Amway supplements and a cool smartphone

I stand amaze at your self-support

Go get a bible

You can afford it 

And you really need one =P

As you continue this new phase of life

I pray that you'll grow to be more reliant on God

To know that the things of this earth may pass away

But our God would stay the same always

To seek Him first 

And let all else fall into place

That you may find a good church

And find that, your priority

Hope to stay connected to you this time round

And after all that I've seen and heard

I must say that I'm totally

Proud of who you've become.

You truly are one of my silverlinings......keep it up!